hidup sebelum mati..

Al-fatihah..pagi ni aku dikejutkan dengan berita kematian..cik jun telah pulang ke rahmatullah..terkejut..sebab xsangka langsung..mak lagi la..nangis lagi..they had been friends like, for tens of years..n she says like, all of her friends had gone now. tinggal dia sorg je..i'd written a poem while i was in med school bout the malay death scenario.. ade dlm buku kt hospital, nnt i write it down..

just the past 2 days, i read a line from saidina Ali ibn Abi Talib bout how death is the real beginning of life..n he's definitely rite..all this while kite sibuk sgt kejar dunia but we forgot that our main goal is the hereafter..dunia ni fana je.. sat je..tup tap tup tap abes..see, i seem like only yesterday i went to send kuih to her house, now she's gone..n now, cepat je aku dah jadi tua..n looking back mmg most of the time is wasted..on what? lagha stuff..tv, game, tido..i'm sure gonna regret this in my grave if this keep going on..

every death is a lesson..jgn cintakan sgt dunia ni..xkn bole bawak mati n xda manfaatnya langsung di akhirat kelak..harta benda ni menambahkan hisab je..kalau zakat xditunaikan dah kena, kite tolong x saudara2 yg memerlukan, awat xsedekah kat sahabat2 kite yg kebuluran di palestine tu..macam2 kite akan di soal tuan2 dan puan2..mcm surah al-zalzalah ckp la, sebesar zarah pun akan diambil kira..yg kite dok wat dosa ni? sebesar nuklear reaktor kot..y kite berasa takut about death? bcoz kite tahu deep down yg amalan kite mmg xbyk langsung, tah diterima ke x n dosa2 kite mmg belambak..dah la kite ni umat akhir zaman..lagi la..sebab tu la kot org2 baik di akhir zaman di panggil pulang ke rahmahtullah awal..byk sgt pancaroba dunia sekrg ni. ustat asri rabbani tu contohnya..aritu tgk tv, die pesan ptg b4 beliau meninggal kt kwn2 die, jgn lambat2kn solat, solat di awal waktu..ni aku akan ingat sampai bila2 insya-Allah.

penah aku dengar bahawa ahkir zaman ni, org islam ramai, tapi yg akan masuk syurga rate die 1 in 1000..like, you have only 0.001% of chance to make it..so little..yet still here are, berjalan dengan angkuhnya kat atas muka bumi Allah ni, yakin yg kite adalah the selected one, akan og straight to heaven tanpa di azab..
every time, i solat berjemaah, this tought ran across my mind..everybdy here wants to go heaven but the odds is 0.001%, who is going to be the selected one.its like, only one person in the masjid and the rest..bye2..and that person might not necessarily be the imam. it can be the only 9 year old kid who is sincere in his solat n never have any buruk sangka twds anything.

so, Allah laid down the path for us, easy je, bertakwa je, amal makruf nahi mungkar.settle..ada dlm surah al-mukminun. tu pun xle wat gak..balok liat sungguh..munafik lagi ada la..tahu kan sifat2 munafik dalam surah al-munafiquun tu kn? haa, sume tu aku ada..bagus kn? apsal aku yakin yg akunye ajal ni lambat lagi? sapa aku ni? nating..nathing at all..anytime aku le go..tersedak nasik, then k.o..komputer ni shot n teletup, masuk dlm brain aku foreign body, jadi ischaemic stroke and k.o..tiba2 ada virus mana hala infect aku jadi enchaphalitis, then k.o..lemah sgt kite manusia ni..tu la, kejar la idup sebelum mati.. aku pesan kat diriku dan sesape yg terbaca post ni..

Ya Allah, cucurkan lah rahmat Mu ke atas ruh cik jun..