tensen

hari ni mmg bersejarah.aku ingat selama ni aku la ho plg bangang dan xguna kat msia ni. tp hari ni, aku dpt satu shif dgn org yg lg dasyat dari aku. grad uk lak tu. patut power aa kan. sekali cait, hapah pn xreti. tp tu xkisah la kan. kalau da bangan tu blaja la. ni x. pemalas gile. keje satu hapah pn xwat. masuk shif, lenggang, sampai nk habes shif baru wat2 rajin. pala hotak ko! aku kisah org bodo sbb aku pun bodo. aku xkisah malas sbb aku pun malas. tapi sampai xwat keje, patient nk mati pun le wat dono. ni dah kronik tahap gaban ni. xpe la, thanks to her aku kena jd lebih rajin dan pandai.tq2. pastu bab solat dgn rehat ckp jaga. bagus la, balik2 patient dah in shock ha ambik. mmg la aku jahat tinggal semayang, tapi kalau aku g semayang sapa nk tgk patient tu? dah nk k.o da, heart rate low, bp high gile. Allah maha adil dan mengetahui la. ko wat camni kat org ko tgk la balasan ko nnt. nama je alim konon, tapi mkn gaji xhalal. keje pun hapah xwat. aku mmg perangai cm syial tp time keje aku wat aa keje aku. da aku tau aku ni mkn gaji n gaji tu nk jadi darah daging aku. org2 len dok mengata gk mula2 tapi aku xcaya lg. sekali kena ha,bygkn aku ni yg penyabar ni, le baran dgn die. da nama dr wat aa keje dr, ko bkn medical student lg. hai, camna la le grad uk. wat malu je.

80s playlist

cerita hijrah

totally just realized that this year maal hijrah coincide with my hijrah. time to move on. i mean the past year was full of endings. here i list down people who passed away during the last year. Long jam, Hafizah, Gary Speed, Socrates, Steve Jobs, Osama Bin Laden, Muammar Gaddafi. ajal maut xmengenal usia dan siapa. kita pn xle jamin kita still akan idup esok kn?

so live life. dont waste time regretting. i mean ask la 4 forgiveness and repent but don't waste time with 'what if...' or 'i should have...'whts done its done. cuz time doesnt wait. if its gone its gone. and hope and aims are essential.

and sometimes, hijrah is necessary. Rasullullah did everything he could and leaves Mecca with a heavy heart but the hijra to Medina was necessary. I also leave becoz it was necessary. otherwise, i would have been eaten up, lose my sense and sanity, and probably inhibit my future growth. what if i didn't went to.

.....

.............

now is not the time 4 'what if'.
now's the time 4 living life to its fullest.

baru pindah

suda ujan sini bah, baru mau pigi jaian. rupanya ada satu jaian dekat dengan hospital saja.

living here has made me thankful.thankful 4 all this nikmat dat im missing:
-nikmat surau ada di mana2 saja
-nikmat solat berjemaah
-nikmat mendengar alunan azan
-nikmat dapat tgk tv semua channel
-nikmat ada remote control
-nikmat makanan yang sedap2
-nikmat ada orang nk sembang
-nikmat naik kereta
-nikmat cahaya matahari
-nikmat mesin basuh auto

despite all this, i really like things this way. this is enough for me.
dunno y but maybe its my adventurous soul kot.
what's next on the list?
dekat2 dulu kot, pulau gaya weekend trip ke.
kinabalu maybe tengah tahun kot, insyaAllah.
tunggu berat badan jadi unggul dulu. kikiki

ujan suda stop tapi awan-awan nano itu masih ada

The philosophical me

-A good storyteller tells, a great storyteller elaborates, a legendary storyteller confabulates-
Guru Kores, circa 2011.

awat la hg pi blah

crap..i really2 feel cesc departure..furthermore, there's a CL qualifying match 2nite..rite nw, i really mcm org putus cinta. sumbody did told me to forget it and move on. but..it stings..time to play the script on my playlist, the best break up cure..n buka posa pun xlalu ni...sampainya hatimuuu~~meninggalkan aku~~

berkabung

...seyes rasa mcam tgh putus cinta...asal la ko blah fabregas oii..sedih dow. ibarat kata2 seorg ni. mcm anak angkat la, bela2 sampai besar, pastu dia nk balik kt real parents dia. apa yg kite le wat?

Cesca Fabregasy

ai, sedih la.

2day fabregas is officially joining barca. we shud really start a campaign to bring in messi in every transfer window after this, until they finally tire and sell him to us.

I wish him all the best tho. he tried really hard to rally the team to success but nobody responded so, i guess it's time to start fresh.

so, y dont we recap my unforgettable memory bout him?

1) that delicious tackle on vieira when nobody gives us a chance against Juve. in ur face pat!



2) That solo goal from halfline against spurs.

3) the penalty that broke his leg

dats about it. adios amigo. RVP for captain!

mengata dulang paku serpih

there is a tjk perasaan at the front of masjid negeri. bout the jais raid issue.apprantlty..(wait, just being interrupted by a schizo person, said got it since 94 n now on cpz, n got side-effects dy. asking 4 sum duit.)so, apprently thy believe tht the church is trying to convert these muslims but we shall not just into any conclsions yet. wait 4 the report to be released.

wht i like to discuss now is, as i just sembang dgn brader sebelah ni, to get to the root of the problem instead of barking at the superfcial ones. y do thy even wanna go 2 chruch to buka puasa? is the identity crisis of us malay muslims nowadays. to be polarised into either the religious conservative group or into the modernised western group. even so, whts more important is the depth of our faith. if we truly are faithful, joining such a dinner wouldnt be a problem.

but, have a look at our youth nowadays?? do you have any faith in them? kecik2 da pukul, bunuh, rogol,zina, buang bayi. where's the fault? if this problem could be tackled, then we dun have to worry bout our people anymore. curb the social problems. these are our future.

BOla is Back!

yuhuu..after months without proper footie n only on iv fm2009 and women world cup, and im malaysian team and epl frendlys, football is back. tho it seems dat i did watch a lot football dis summer.

(Live)
Arsenal vs Malaysia
Malaysia vs Singapore

sampai da boring da g bkt jalil tu.

ok epl 2011/12 predictions:

1. Manchester United
2. Liverpool Fc
3. Manchester City
4. Arsenal Fc
5. Chelsea Fc
6. Tottenham Hotspurts
7. Everton
8. Fulham
9. Sunderland
10. Stoke
11. Newcastle
12. Bolton
13. Aston Villa
14. West Bromwich Albion
15. Wigan Athletic
16. Queen Park Rangers
17. Wolverhampton Wanderers
18. Norwich City Fc
19. Swansea
20. Blackburn Rovers

Sick of Malaysian politics

dunno y but after reading the news 2day i really felt sick bout the state of our politics. n i just wish it would stop n go back to the day b4 the political tsunami. yeah, i admit, it was really exciting initially to see the opposition finally got the voice to bash the government and hopefully, keep them in check. but sadly, the opposite had happened. rather than keeping them in check, they used it for personal gains.

i bet nobody knows my true political view to date cuz i seem to be supporting this side at one point and the other at one point. they called people like me lalang la, xda pendirian, bacul. but the truth is, i can't commit to either bcoz none seems any good and the other. (insert political news from 2008 until now)y am i worrying rite now? bcuz i have to vote in the upcoming election.

so, i will be put up to choose against this 3 option:

1) vote for the ruling party.
2) vote for the opposition.
3) abstain/ vote bebas (if any)

while i'm thankful to live in a democratic country and has the right to vote, it's sad that the winner ie; majority tends to ignore the minority when it wins. that's when hatred and grudge boils. look at the result of the last election, the pattern is usually like this. the majority wins by 52%, or 54%. the minority gets only 48% of the votes. 48% usually equivalent to almost 20,000 of people. trouble happen when you ignore 20,000 people in one constituent. due to dissatisfaction or perception that injustice is being served.


in my humble view, what we want is justice. Malaysian are seeded with a high moral value and ideals. That's why you see that people wiling to say bad words, calling names, seek dirty tactics just to uphold the justice that they believe in. now, i'm not gonna say which side holds the true justice bcuz if you really look into it, none is. What i want to say is, with justice, will come economic development, lower the gaps between the rich and the poor, higher purchasing power, reduce unemployment, reduce inflation, reduce corruption, reduce crime rates. I'm not asking for Captain America or Spiderman to come and serve it to us but i believe the politicians can. to bad it seem to be a really big ask for them. why? because they don't want to tolerate or in other words, lose out. lose out on money, shares, influence, votes.

One politician that i know since childhood (sapa lagi kan?) really change with time. What start out as a really noble mission to protect and serve the people, bring development and prosperity upon him embarking in politics has now, turns into a mission to save his and his own decendants own periuk nasi. it's like the noble houseman mission to become the head of department in hope to better the condition of houseman. "Nanti aku jadi specialist/ head of department, aku mesti layan pekerja aku elok-elok" is a famous quote that could be heard in the thoughts of each houseman since the days of dulu-dulu lagi.

since entering the adult world, the theme constantly running thruout is money, cars, home while previously it was fun, and chicks. the constrast was appaling cuz it was like yesterday were talking bout the coolest band and some stupid lame jokes and now it was about investment, insurance and stuff you wont give a damn bout when u awas a student. cuz during student life, you could easily survive a week with rm10 on maggi and ais kosong. but why cant you do so when you entered the adut life? what has changed?

it comes down to these two factors, i think,

1) more commitment. dis one cannot say anything la. mmg betul pun. but, pepel say makin betambah bilangan, rezeki pun makin bertambah.

or

2) more desire. ya la, imagine suddenly you get thousands whilst b4 you only get hundreds. its like dulu2 dapat 20sen g sekolah, so le beli eskem pop or gula2 je. then jd teenager dapat puluh2 so le la nk smart sket, le beli ray ban celup, jam guess celup, then dapat ratus2 le aa angkat enset ada kaler, ringtone pun le men lagu, klu x lagu nokia je kuar. so, with more income > more desire la. can afford what?

dats y i already outline what i want specifically and i'll work to get these stuff. after that i'm content. greed consumes the human in you,you know. nnt xberkesudahan kejar dunia je. get my car? setel. get my crib? setel. done wit ma bucket list? setel.

then, after dat what r u goin to do?, you might ask..well dear, i just gonna play football manager til i die. muahaha

one hour from love

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kate org jiwang2 ape? lautan api pun sanggup ku renangi..hehe..xoxo

Arse

So, Arsenal is coming to Malaysia. at first, i decided not to give a damn cuz i had already seen them back in the emirates but finally, upon discovered that i could get free tickets and training passes,i decided to join the bandwagon after all. haha..

so, my quest for free ticket began.
sunday, after subuh, i dashed to OU and arrived around 7am. wah, syok gile rasa igtkn dah jd org first in line la ni. aku masuk kot pintu belakang sebab pintu depan ttp n dok cari2 mane studio V ni. then, dlm kegelapan tu, jumpa la. so, aku sampai kat main entrance tgk xde org. sekali kat luar tu line beratur da panjang da. haha. abg yg 1st tu muka mmg bengkek abes,mmg da tahap le pukul org da, igt aku ptg line die. rupanye dia da beratur dari kol 2 pagi lagi. gilak. siap tido kat situ. rupenye the first 3 in line get to meet the players. no wonder he's so pissed. so, i masuk line, dpt la around no 80. thn, sembang2. thn, ada cubaan siot utk ptg line dpean aku.yg xle tahan tu, siap tny aku ni, abg dtg kol bp? aku jwb 7. u dtg kol bp? ...aaa, 8. camne ko le dok depan aku lak? ape da..

-org depan aku-


-org belakang aku. tiket nk bagi 180, yg belakang tu tgg ape xtau la-

thn approx, 10 o clock pintu bukak , thn i give my the star coupon (collect 4 5 days) n get i free ticket worth rm68. smile.......


-tiket-

now, training pass.
dis one mencabar sket. collect 10 coupon from Kosmo alredy n need to go to Melawati ko redeem it. so, i took the wrong highway, end up in the MRR 2 on my bike, could got kill a few times and finally reached destination after 1 and a half hour. aku tau area dekat umah kudud je sebab penah g sekali. nice la the area, tenang, sebab belakang tu bukit. then sampai, lepak2 sembang2, amek trainig pass. smile..........

-aku org no.10 dlm line, esok dlm paper kosmo ade gambar aku,hehe-


-training pass-

then, g la tgk training. start at 7pm. before dat hang out dgn che a.

-no slr, no photoshop, just pure photography talent-

best gk tgk trainig sbb aku dpt dok kt grandstand area tu. nampak la player2 msia n arsenal. not bad la team season ni, tapi masalah lama mcm menular lagi la. still dono depan goal. miyaichi ok. die byk fan tp dia malu2 kucing. sbb die baru pas spm. baru 18. xde membe dlm team lak tu. kalau aku pun segan kan. baru masuk keje xkn nk tjk star lak.

-Szczney dgn Mannone tgh warm-up, le nampak ke?-

esok, g la match. rupe nye patut la tiket free, seat kat dgn sky window haa, bole capai segala bulan dan bintang. tapi le la nampak match. syok match. aku mmg berbelah bagi gile. 2 2 chenta hati ku. macam nk kena pilih bini 1st ke, bini 2nd. last2 aku pilih msia. mmg aku sapot msia throughout the whole match. arsenal score pun aku xcelebrate sbb aku xrasa apa2. nw, i know where my loyalty lies. bini tua yg menang. ahaha. kita play not bad, ada plan , n tau apa yg patut di buat. tapi mmg jurang teknikal n speed tu luas. xpe2, yg penting wat pengajaran. n menang singapore. tu lg penting. then, time nk balik aku sa'i la balik ke ara moto aku. sebab aku dpt green gate n aku parking kat red gate, so mmg kena sa'i setengah stadium. otw, nk balik, tu aku pelik asal depa ni dok gayut kat pagar ni. g la cek.oo, rupenya bas player. so, nampak la muka player msia, arsenal seketul depan muka aku. safee, safiq, apeq, rajagopal. pastuh, ryo (muka cuak gile xtau asal tp tgn dok lambai), van persie, nasri pakai headphone gedabak tu corak bintang, vermaelen da tido, song bajet macho. smile....

oleh sbb gambar yg len sume gamba semut, yg kat bus jd blur lak, syg tol, so xyh nk upload.

berbaloi x? of kos.

tingin aa lak nk amek sport science jd doc arsenal. ehehe.

Long Kiss Goodbye-Halcali

da xjupe da pasnih. huhu sedey.

mokcik hypo

when a makcik beside u at a street said the word 'hypo', u know that malaysians nowadays are totally educated.

which is sad given the fact that unemployment remains at its best. waste of human resources. totally. who's to blame? bad governance and management.

the people are gearing towards a developed country in a steady pace.
sadly, the government forget to tag along and are lagging behind.

hey, dont believe what i said? drop by in to a gov hosp nearby u and see what i meant. the staff attitude reflects their superiors. and the superiors attitude are inspired by whom? their superiors. enuff said.

sayang kan to see the country's potential being drained to waste. we need leaders who is with the people, not against them. Rasullullah was pelted with stones, excretion ,thorns in his dakwah. did he ever bite back the people he preached to? in the end they succumb to his kindness and could see the truth that he brings.

malaysian leaders nowadays? if ur not with me, then ur my sworn enemy! xde belajar langsung persuasion technique, bodek2 la rakyat tu. baru negara aman. xda la demostration.

random quotes of the day

-sesungguhnya dunia ni amatlah kecik

-kite yg pernah susah paham apa perasaan org yg susah

-Allah has He's own unique and lovely way to give lessons to us

-Karma will always come to bite u in the *ss

-balik pulau tu kecik je, betul. bak kata mat rani, bewak mati kat kongsi pun, jalan bole jam.

the rzon

Reasons y i like wednesday:

-feel good factor frm watching si capik the prev nite
-tiket wayang murah
-days of good news
-always felt like a holiday
-or the day when sense of urgency kicks in cz u knw the week is gonna finish
-CL football

transfer stori

Since there's no activity from arsene wenger, here's my two cents on who sould go and stay

1 GK Manuel Almunia -pls sell to anywhere i dun care.
2 MF Abou Diaby -see above.
3 DF Bacary Sagna -keep
4 MF Cesc Fàbregas (captain)- if he stays good, if not i dun care.
5 DF Thomas Vermaelen -keep.
6 DF Laurent Koscielny -keep.
7 MF Tomáš Rosický -luv him but he shud go.
8 MF Samir Nasri -keep, it'll b a loss if he goes.
10 FW Robin van Persie (vice-captain)-keep
11 FW Carlos Vela -time's up. go to spain.
13 GK Jens Lehmann -be a coach.
14 FW Theo Walcott -keep.
15 MF Denílson -refer manuel almunia.
16 MF Aaron Ramsey -keep. future capt.
17 MF Alex Song -keep.
18 DF Sébastien Squillaci -keep 4 cover n exp.
19 MF Jack Wilshere -keep.
20 DF Johan Djourou -sell bcuz 2 stupid.
21 GK Łukasz Fabiański -sell, expired already.
22 DF Gaël Clichy -see johan djourou.
23 MF Andrei Arshavin -keep, but if offer >10mil then sell.
24 GK Vito Mannone -sell to italy.
27 MF Emmanuel Eboué -sell to black market slave trading.
28 DF Kieran Gibbs -keep.
29 FW Marouane Chamakh -keep.
30 DF Armand Traoré -sell to france.
35 MF Emmanuel Frimpong -promote.
40 MF Craig Eastmond -reserve
41 MF Jay Emmanuel-Thomas -promote as target man.
46 MF Henri Lansbury -promote
52 FW Nicklas Bendtner -sell to bundesliga.
53 GK Wojciech Szczęsny -keep.

so, obviously, we,re gonna be thin rite after selling all the deadwood.
players tht shud come in: (thoug wenger would be 2 srupid to do this)

Gk-Lloris (top gk, french, cant go far wit lyon. but comes with a big price tag)
DR-van der Wiel (cover 4 sagna, frens wit RvP n Tommy V alredi)
DL-Coentrao (easily b our 1st choice DL, hard 2 c wit madrid alredi selling their virus)
CD-Sakho (next Thuram, french)
DM- Matuidi (next Makelele, french, comp 4 song tho he'll win)
RM- Navas (excellent on the wing, sevilla on the drop, prone 2 homesick tho)
LM- Kagawa (or just use our own Ryo Miyaichi! big fan of him alredi)

other than this, were fine.strikers?
RvP- our technical, skillful type.
Theo- our pacy, Henry type.
Chamakh- our big, target man type.
Arshaving- our dribbler type.


-our next Overmars n Pires, ensem mcm takuya kimura-

nihon go shiken

私 わ 日本語 試験 五十六 チャートました .頑張る!

got 56 in my 1st jap xm. keep on goin! i can barely read any of those kanji above. thnk god 4 google tlate.

p/s: dont paste the above sentence into google tlate. u'll laugh. yup, my grammar and hombun terrible.

The paradox of angry birds.

yesterday i was playin angry birds and i was fuming mad bcoz of:
i) no matter what i did the blocks wont fall down.
ii) made worse to see the a beat up pig grinning at you. just die already.

i'm sure this just a thing dat everyone playing angry birds exp.

but, today, on my first attempt at the level that i'm stuck yest, without even thinking n just pulling the sling, i managed to clear the level in a single shot. wow.

thus, making me tought of life. our life.

sometimes, no matter how hard you try, the results just wont came.
not that it is our fault for trying though.
n later in the future, things just went smooth without even trying.

i guess it's Allah way of making us learning and enjoying life.
making it more fun, exciting and pleasurable.
to make us realize that we are actually powerless. a nobody.
and that all will and and force, plans and destiny is by his will.
and as easy as He's saying kun fa ya kun.

dats y kite selalu dgr ustat2 ckp, Allah uji tu sebab dia sayang.
if he doesn't, you'll just be a 9-5 rat and people will be chain smoking at your funeral, discussing about the latest cars, or their life instead.


-angry birds makes me an angry boy-

pareto's rule

know the difference between being efficient, procrastinating and time wasting.

currently reading : hot, flat and crowded.

currently being forced to eat : kacang buncis.



there's a difference btween this and kacang panjang apparently.

bola bola bola

well, the football season finally over. actually, i was over 4 me since the 89th minute of the carling cup final in feb, but nevertheless.
here's how the team next year shoud look, provided that we still play 4-3-3.



Gk-were fine here, allow sczney to develop n he shud buried the ghost of cc final behind him, making him a stronger person

def- clichy had been too stupid. sell him. vermaelen n sagna shud b able to lead the line. koscielny was superb against barca, so he just need to recover from the cc final. gibbs will fit in nicely.

mid-wht? no cesc. i doubt he would stay. nway, he gone to me since the 2nd leg against barca. shoes where he's heart is. i dun care. ramsey would fill in his shoes n he and wilshere will lead the mid. sell denilson, diaby, rosicky. promote lansbury.

att-again, i expect arshavin to be sold. he's from is great this year n i'm sure he'll be looking 4 a club who can win titles, such as birmingham FC. so, we got theo, rvp and nasri, with chamakh and JET as back up. vela n bendtner to be sold.

so, with this line up, we got winners mentality all over the pitch. any one who slacks off shud a bollocking by either, tommy V, Aaron, Jack or Robin. this shud made the players all die to play 4 arsenal. bring in tony adams as assistant to instill the spirit back in the team.

pls la win sth next year. we are to good to be trophyless.

let the k-pop fever continues lagi

-2ne1, lonely-

also new fr 2ne1.
kalau lonely lyn le lagu nih.

let the k-pop fever continues

-love song, bigbang-

If you hate this love song, then why r u singing it?
nice vid clip btw, cameraman pandai

Shampoo-After School

-new fr afterschool, terus rasa nk shampoo kepala habaq hg-

Day 2- Non Hodgkin lymphoma

Non-hodgkin lymphoma (NHL) is a malignancy of the lymphocytes. In simple words, it's cancer of the lymphatic system.

day 2 at the course saw the intensity of the course with numerous technical stuff need to b learned. hectic as it is, we still managed to get our breaks n it was during the zuhur prayer that i get my knock of the day.

usually, i rarely meddle with people business but feeling like making a bit of small talk, i decided to ask A(people confidentiality)why he was wearing an ankle guard."injured ke? terseliuh eh?"."tak ah.""abes, asal pakai ankle guard ni?""..aku kena lymphodema"...biar betul.it is then that i noticed what happened to his legs.


-what a lymphodema looked like-

then, we chatted. he was doing his masters in UK when he noticed that he had a lump. then, he decided not to undergo chemo cuz scared but as time pass by, the symptoms got worse, n he had to undergo 6 cycle of chemo. Now, for those who don't know, going for chemo is like being made to eat that will make u vomit. It's not pleasant.et al. It made u sick, nauseous, vomit, fatigue, lose weight, lose hair and it saps the energy and life out of you.

And then, he had to stop studying cuz he missed to much of the semester. He was advised to find an office job by the doc bcoz he’s condition wont enable to be outdoors anymore, prompting him to come to the course. Oh, and he’s been unemployed for 4 years…

I really take off my hat to this guy. I really had the utmost respect to any cancer sufferers or survivors. It’s not an easy thing. Dah la sakit, lama pulak tu, betahun-tahun. Kalau sakit lain, demam ke, jantung ke, sakit kejap je. N the medicine they took is horrible. N x semestinya sembuh lak tu. N afterwards, they need to start a new life from scratch. Imagine the enormous mental challenge that they been through. Berat mata yang memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikulnya.

He’s really been an inspiration to me. Cool je, n still happy je. As if, xde masalah langsung. Le berulang balik from negeri9 to the course everyday. He was a civil engineer and now he had to passed up that dream. At this point all that was going in my heads was, aku ingat aku dah teruk, ada lagi orang yg lg susah dari aku. In fact, almost all people, I presume, had their own deep, dark secret. I can sense it from their eyes n from their talk. Macam lirik lagu, masing2 ada masalah sendiri, masalah dunia, masalah peribadi. Yang kaya ada prob org kaya. Yg miskin ada prob org miskin.

From my observation, 7 out of the 12 people in the class ada masalah berat. 5 lagi tu ada masalah gak, tapi xseberat lagi 7 ni. 4 of them are employment related, 1 is familial related, 1 is either employment/financial and 1 is either familial/financial.

He’ll have his follow up next month n probably another vascular surgery to correct the lymphedema. Encik halim said he got a job alredy. Good for him.

Never lose faith

Allahuakbar.

Aku pernah berdoa kepada Allah agar ditemukan dengan seorang yang mampu menjawab persoalan yang terbuku di pekungku. seorang alim atau seorang abid atau seorang guru. Jikalau ku tahu orang itu duduk di gua terpencil sekalipun, akan ku jejak beliau untuk menghuraikan buku-buku simpulan persoalan di benak ku ini. dan beberapa hari lalu, ku ulangi doaku ini, dalam keadaan basah kuyup disimbahi air hujan kota raya yang hangat.
'Ku tahu Kau sentiasa mendengar Ya Allah, tapi kenapa Kau tak menjawab?'ku bermonolog sendirian. persis orang kehilangan arah haluan. bak kapal tiada kemudi di lautan bergelora.

Allahuakbar.

Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mendengar.السميع. Maha mengetahui rahasia. الخبير. Semalam tika ku sibuk dengan urusan duniaku, tiba2 ada sekumpulan manusia berkumpul untuk mendengar ceramah. 'Dipersilakan Asyraf imam muda untuk memberikan ceramahnya'. Terpaku diriku seketika. dahagaku terhadap ilmu tidak pernah puas, lantasku tinggalkan urusanku dan menyertai kumpulan itu. Inilah kali pertama aku melihar mahupun mendengar suara beliau. (Kerana selama ini, ku fikir yang asyraf muslim itu imam muda)Lalu bermulalah syarahan beliau, dan isinya adalah mengenai wasiat Luqman nur hakim kepada anaknya, sepertimana yang terdapat dalam Surah Luqman.

Ilmu yang kita ada ini sangatlah cetek. ibarat setitis air di lautan. Banyak yang kutimba semalam, mendengar kata-katanya, luluh hatiku, ibarat ditoreh dengan pisau belati dan berdarah kepanasan, pilu sangat. Pelbagai perkara yang ku persoalkan selama in terjawab. dan akan ku ingat katanya, Allah takkan uji seserorang itu melainkan dia tahu orang itu mampu menanggungnya, kerna Allah itu Maha Adil. Seberat mana ujian itu menunjukkan sebanyak mana Allah sayang padanya. memang aku lupa. memang aku tak bersyukur. Mampukan aku lulus ujianmu ini Ya Rab? Ya Allah, biarlah pengakhiranku di dalam Islam dan iman.


p/s: asyraf imammuda wins hands down against acap jambu penyu. xle celen.

Sayugianya..

Well, I decided to start a 10 day blog post since I had enrolled in the 10 day course. One post each for the issue of the day. The course is great and I get to meet all kind of people. Ranging from 55+ to as young as 23 years old, the course acts as a melting pot, and blend is indeed what we do. Apart from one weirdo though, ahaha. I thank Allah for giving me Taufik and Hidayah when I asked for it, and less that I know that He intent to it in a way that you will only notice it after it has happened. Rediscovering yourself is totally easier said than done. You hear motivationist or preachers blab self improvement techniques and to do be a better person but 99% will not make a change. The 1% discovered it through the hard way. And don’t be surprised to find a Malay version of the post as well. I’m in the process to ‘melestarikan bahasa’. So, without further ado, here goes my so called blog-a-thon.

Day 1-The unemployment issue

Well, there was the introduction phase and later on, we chatted around. And thanks to that great enquiry instinct women possess, my cover was blown and I was made the leader of the course. Great, another burden to carry, but I suck at leading and soon they shall see. The food‘s being given twice so, we get to mingle during that period. Then, after many conversations, I found out that 5 don’t have a job, 4 don’t have a real job and 3 have jobs but looking for a job to make ends meet.

They might not tell it to your face but you can sense it from the desperate facial expression and voice tone. The 3 with the jobs actually have great remuneration but still, expenses are killing Malaysian families nowadays. Lots of graduates are being produced yearly but, without jobs to match their skills, what a waste. The Talent Corp is a waste of money because we have great human resources; it’s just we don’t create enough opportunities for them. And don’t get started on the financial crisis issue. A country with a financial crisis won’t be spending RM 5 billion lavishly on a building that have no importance and could only create 300 odd jobs.

Last week, when I went to the BBQ party in Port Dickson, the same issue arise again. We got this guy who had been training superbly and finishes with flying colors, comes out with no job. And for the recent post of trainee at the institute, only 10 out of 2000 applicants are hired. What’s the percentage? Only 5% were hired! And that’s to become a friggin trainee, not for a permanent post. So, what the 95% going to do? Re-apply to other place, get rejected and then, either they re-train, which is a complete waste of their spent time for their previous skill, or return to their parents. Thus, leading our workforce to have low experience and the only way to get better is through experience.

When you ask our leader, they say ‘oh, you have to improve your skills (which they already have), become an entrepreneur (which is friggin difficult due to governmental red tape, the only option is to open a stall), don’t be choosy la (how can you be choosy when there’s nothing to choose?). The best part is this, ‘we had offered 4,000 jobs at the recent job fair (I won’t say which one) and we are proud of this’. Numbers that attended the job fair? 400,000.

You might say I’m complaining without offering something concrete right? So, here’s some of my suggestion.

Reduce inflation. With reduced inflation, the people purchasing power parity will increase. Thus, leading to a better quality of life and people can enjoy their lives more and families will be happier.

The current method to increase wages will only lead to further inflation as there are more money circulating. In the end nobody wins and it will only devalue our currency. There’s no need to look good on financial papers saying that we have the highest GDP/ GDP per capita when that doesn’t reflect the actual situation.

Curb inflation by implementing ceiling price, forming unions that act upon traders who shoot up prices, increasing supply and make sure that it is not ok to increase price whenever oil price comes up.

Hence, by reducing inflation, people don’t have to look for a second job. People won’t have to be choosy. People will be braver to become entrepreneurs. I end this sad speech with Salam 1malaysia.

thescriptology

New from The Script, If you ever come back.

-and if you're out there trying to move on,
but something pulls you back again,
I'm sitting here trying to persuade you,
like your in the same room-

-now they say that I'm wasting my time,
cause you never coming home,
But they used to say the world was flat,
but how wrong was that now-

been to james st where these guys lives and hang out. i still remember goin to lidl (cari mac n cheese dgn porn or capik kisas, time tu cam dgn jere belum ajaq mkn yogosan lagik), lalu pass the famed guinness brewery (tapi xpenah nk p tgk pun, usha kot luar je) n usually the main purpose of goin to james street was bcoz of goin to the big an post (post office in gaelic) to pick up undelivered packages. sounds cool eh? xde manenye, i swear to you ireland is sebijik macam kampung msia. the supposedly big an post tu mcm post office balik pulau je. aah, god i miss eire!
sape2 nk blanje aku g tgk dieorg kt spore or manila nex week, aku akan cinta org itu seumur idup.

story

Story 1: Mendengar guruh di langit, air dlm tempayan dicurahkan.

the public library in shah alam, scheduled to move to a new building in front of the klab golf in january, n again re-scheduled to move in march, is closed. amidst all the scheduling, the new building is currently populated with southern asian workers.refer to the peribahasa.

Story 2: lai khee lai khee, pun see siang

with the enormous influx of housemen coming in, serdang hosp has invented a genius way of to ensure that the quality of their housemen suffering remain at its best.nw, they have reduce the number of oncall but instead, replaced it with extended working hours up to 9pm. so, nw, they dont have to pay for oncalls but still get the equivalent amount of manpower.refer to the hokkien peribahasa also.

still waiting confirmation frm zidan bout me job bt me bro said the food there's great.n stil waiting fr kkm lg. n suju is performin in msia 2nite.n really wan2 go to japan to help, but apprently they also not in a state to receive people.in a blink of an eye, 500k pepel become homeless. mmg kekuasaan ilahi, kun faya kun..

emo kid

woke up at, wait, actually i hadn't slept et al, waiting for the Arsenal-Barca game. then, went to mmz at 3.30 n again the kedai was dissapointing so had to gerak to shazz instead. the game was phenomenal. i almost died of atrial fibrillation. my heart beat was racing and totally irregular and the guy in front of me could hear every beat of it. n every curse dat come out from me mouth.

curse barca.
curse yaya toure.
curse dani alves.+ 1 more curse.
curse leo messi for not playin 4 us.
curse capten cesc 4 being overawed by the occasion. if i was playin against penang, i wouldn't give a damn.
curse the ref 4 being a cunt. lets hope dat his son is a arsenal fan and later develop ptsd due to the game and later, goes amok and mutilate his own dad voice box so dat he couldn't be a ref anymore.
curse our defenders 4 bein so pedestrian. hack the ball in2 row Z pls.
curse barca fans 4 being soo pretentiously the holy team of football. mes que un club eh? xle terima kekalahan ckp ar.every year ur tapping up our best players n still u considered u guys r the thruthful ones? (overmars, petit, gio, henry, hleb, fab)
yest game made me loathe u guys even more. hala madrid!
curse xavi and iniesta.
curse bendtner. curse him again i think.
curse spurs 4 makin it thru.

on the bright side, the league is still there to be won.(forget the FA cup, we'll choke again)what could be done differently? well add more muscles in the middle of defence and the park. we're being outmuscled everytime they pressure the ball. and every time we get the ball or try to distribute it, they will out 3 people to won it back. dat y their possession is so high. retain, attack, regain, retain.

ez pz. japanizi.

like this page plz
http://www.facebook.com/pages/ANTI-BARCELONA/54505162364

cute song..cute vid..peace

be responsible on what you are responsible of

hadei, 3 days in a row of bad luck. would somebody make me a pot of roasted rabbit's foot soup and give me a four-clover leaf ring. maybe i'm not Irish enuff to get enuff luck. here's a story of keling karam malaysia (kkm).

keling 1:
went to the kakak (who yest told me just to isi the form and MAIL it back. n her peers said, he ALREADY DID that. yeke? hee, terkenyih. seb baik la ko comel) to submit my form. then, as usual she just said put it in the basket. then, i decided to ask sumthing more. ape? bole x speed upkn my form cuz my spa is gonna expired next month. so, it would be a major hassle to go through the interbiuwing process again. dia kate, ape? xperlu la. kita bkn proses sampai setaun, sebulan je. i said, no, u misunderstood. then, xpln again. baru dia kalut pi kt boss die. then, ckp, u silap isi form ni, u patut isi form lain, ni sapa yg suruh isi form nih? ....AKAK LA...ye ke, terkenyih...seb baik la ko comel..sejuk sikit ati aku yg nk panas ni. then, lari to her boss.

keling 2:
determined to rub salt in my wound n misdirect her staff uselessness, she went, haa, sapa suro berenti,,kan dah rugi,,awak xkn dapat sekian2,,n sekian2...like i care...ptt ke org mai mintak tlg, nk songket2 lak..mcm ni la, kata la kita tgh sakit kronik terdampar di hosp, who do you want to be on your side? a) org yg keep on blabbering, haaa, aku dah suro jgn isap rokok, minum arak, adakan hubungan rambang, berkongsi jarum, makan makanan berlemak, berketurunan asia atau caribbean atau african, dll.. or b) org yg keep on motivating and determined to bury the past thru redemption...u decide..then, die ckp oo ni kena g spa balik, schedule balik n isi balik form..while at the same time, never offer a single apology due to her staff incompetence that cost me a month. nvm, i never expect it anyway.

then, i end up in the right place, meet the people, who tell me the right thing to do and hope that everything will be allright. n turns out to be cuter by subjective perception than the initial kakak. idup ni macam roda kan?

4 the 1st time

-for the first time, The Script-

i wanna hire the script to do my autobio.miss Dublin btw.

Old and Young

What the oldies are thinking:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/17/nation/8083615&sec=nation

not my prob la. aku da nk pencen ni.stop bugging me. i'm gonna solve this as fast as i can then chow to Canada/HK/Australia with my brand new yacht.gotta keep my cv clean.care to have any long-term vison mate? doubt it.

What the youngsters are thinking:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/3/focus/7918678&sec=focus
make sense? no? does this shows dat kite ni lembik? i 2nd this however. not because i dont want to suffer but becoz it actually does make sense. guess we have to do big protest Egypt-style to be heard eh? but no. mane ade masa. with ever-gripping fear of extension2.

like this la, docs are a very selfish lot. xtipu. bocz i still care that i took the road that not been taken. so, b4 this, most of the oldies are like the youngster. then, they naik pangkat. due to their selfish nature,( we'll they have to, otherwise they cannot climb up this high) they forgotten how it was before and couldnt care less bout the underlings as long as their wealth and status are guaranteed. sorry for the strong statement but sadly, its true. not pointing fingers to docs only cuz other profession pun like this.

so, to think liow tong lai would give a damn bout what that h.o wrote would be like waiting for a cat to grow horns and stop miowing nuisancely every nite. n the h.o would be like, wait till i'm the specialist/h.o.d/health minister i'm gonna change all this. but, corrupted by the system b4 he/she gets there, he/she forgets and innate nature kicks in which is selfishness. most doc/specialist would give you the similar story. wishing and waiting for the system to change since 30 years ago. y hasnt it changed? bcoz thy too jaga kain sendiri and would care bout others, as long as their wealth and status are guaranteed and preserved.

sad sad sad.oh my beloved country..n it all stems to our 3rd world mentality.

not all ya,some only.takut woo nk blog pelik2 la ni, nnt kena tangkap free2. but again, i have nothing, and nobody reads this friggin blog nwy, so, be my guest..

Nating

-Nothing, The Script-
exactly my feelings, down to every words.

Arsenal cinta hatiku

what a nite and what a day.we beat the best football team in the planet, Barcelona C.F! with the world's best player in their team Lionel Messi! ahahahahahaaa
let me smile as wide as i can por favor............smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee



hahahaha...in ur face those said we were gonna get thrashed
player ratings:
9- Szcnesny. super konfident, super spirited
7- Eboue. very semangat and hard working but intelligent wise...
10- Koscielny.my new hero. read most barca attack well indeed.
7- Djouru. good but could be better.
8- Clichy. Defending wise could be improved but a nice assist
6- Song. Stupid to get booked early. everybody knows you cant catch Messi. then, that lame attempt to go fwd leading for us to lose the ball. defending wise ok.
10- Wilshere. xcuak langsung, xavi ke, iniesta ke, busquets ke. really works his socks off
9- Capitano Cesc- control the midfield and shows Xavi that he's better.
6- Walcott. theartening early on but then dissapear. always track back thou.
10- Nasri. our player of the year. calm, collected, had lovely vision.
10- Robin van Hoodie. Bisa berbisa. left, right, header, ass? u name it, he'll score it.
7- Bendtner- came late to kacau the Barca back line'.
9- Arshaving- what a lovely technique.
10- Wenger. for sticking to our values. nevermind the critiques.

oh, and i almost cried when Arshaving scored.sumpah xbajet lgsg le menang.

vid of the day: breakeven- The script. every single lyrics describe me. njoy.

prebiew arsenal vs barcalona

woo.dead excited bout 2nite game. sp*rs won at AC last nite, making us need to absolutely win this game to not lose face to them.
our probable line up:
(pardon my horrible drawing)


Barca probable line up:
(again, pardone)


shudn't be a problem rite? with our ever reliable back line and experienced goalkeeper, also not to mentioned midfield that never loses the ball and strike force dat thrashed opponents weekly, Barca will ketaq lutut to face us. Plus, Messi who?

aah, god. may my reverse psychology works. cant bear to see another thrashing. remember guys, Boringho had showed dat it takes 3 people to tame Messi. Clichy, Wilshere and Song better take note. nway, i don;t expect us to be chickens like Inter. kamon la for tonite!!!

Need to invest in a cup of Neslo ais and Barbican epal lagik mlm ni...

Malaysia vs Hong Kong semalam

-yours truly at 0:37-0:40-

hehe, aah, what a brilliant nite..Malaysia win 2-0 against Hong Kong. The line up are as follows..

MALAYSIA: Khairul Fahmi Che Mat (Mohd Farizal Marlias), Mohd Asraruddin Putra Omar, Mohd Aidil Zafuan, Mahalli Jasuli (Mohd Sabre Mat Abu), Mohamad Fadhli Mohd Shas, Safiq Rahim, K. Gurusamy (G. Mahathevan), Mohamad Ashaari Samsudin (Mohd Amirulhadi Zainal), S. Kunanlan, Ahmad Fakhri Saarani (Noshahrul Idlan Talaha), Mohd Safee Mohd Sali (Shahrizal Mohd Saad).

HONG KONG: Yapp Hung Fai, Li Hang Wui, Deng Jinghua (Gerard Ambassa Guy), Wong Chin Hung, Chan Wai Ho, Lee Wai Lim, Lam Ka Wai, Lo Kwan Yee, Lo Chi Kwan (Chu Siu Kei), Liu Quankun, Lee Hong Lim, Ye Jia.

1st Half:
We went out playing attacking game with our usual 4-4-2 formation. The only changes are No.13 Ahmad Fakhri at right ST and No.7 Aidil Zafuan at right CD. We pressed them early and had 3 chances in the first 10 minutes, i think. I dont know why the boys are really fired up tonight, perhaps to stave off competitions for places in the team with so many players now knocking on the national team. insert Brendan Gan. Then, came our real chance in the 13th minute, a long range shot from our No.10 Safee Sali, if i'm mistaken (cuz i think Ahmad Fakhri made the shot but reports says otherwise), caught the HK goalkeeper unprepared as he could only parry it upwards and it hit the right post. We continues to dominate possession throughout and pressing is high, Barcelona-like. More action is on the right side of the field with our LW No.26, Mohamed Ashaari isolated and look a lost figure. The link between him and our LB, No.4 Asraruddin Putra was poor, causing the left side to be ineffective. Nevertheless, we kept posession and threatening with HK shape is now a narrow 4-5-1. The coach realizes this and shift Ashaari to the middle and immmediate improvement could be seen. perhaps Rajagopal was experimenting on his position and there's no harm in doing so in a friendly. Our next real chance came from our RW, No.16 Kunalan with a shot that just off the far post at the 34th minute. Nearing the end of the first half, the HK somehow switched off thinking about half time when our capitano, No.8. Safiq steal the ball, Norshahrul-like, and finish off after a nice shimmy. 1-0 to Malaysia.

2nd half:
HK decided not to sit back and change their formation to 4-3-3 or more like 4-2-3-1. It definetily changed the game but kudos to our backline and custodian, No.22, Khairul Fahmi didn't break a sweat at all.HK no.9 threathend a few times and attempt a pathetic dive at a corner flag once at 60th minute,but they rarely caused any real danger to our goal at all. Our midfield duo was superb in controlling the midfield with Safiq partnering No.15, Guru. Then, we made a couple of substitution towards the end with the introduction of No.9 Norshahrul causing panic to the HK backline with his pace. In the end, probably, Hk already thinking about their return flight again switch off and a nice cross to Amirul Hadi give him our second goal at 90th minute. Malaysia 2-HK 0.

Pros:
4-4-2. I thought Rajagopal was going to tinker with our tactic and line-up. So, im surprised to see a similar team to our cup winning team. but this proved that 4-4-2 suits us best.
Safiq. He alone controlled the game and Hk was stupid no put some one to man mark him. Given all the freedom, Safiq really dictates the game and Malaysia's gameplan.
Work rate. Superb. All players work hard to regain possession whenever its lost. we never give HK any time to settle down.
Have fun. Its nice to see our players still having fun on the pitch and not be strict disciplinarians like North Korea. That's what football is all about. An ole from Ashaari, nice back flick from Safee, silky skill from Ahmad Fakhri and Norshahrul. baru best main bola macam ni.

Cons:
Technique. looks like we are still lacking in terms of this but the future's bright for these guys and they'll improve no doubt.
Creativity. Again, we are not Brazil bt seems like we really stick to our gameplan last nite. If that doesn't work i'm not sure we have a plan B or player who can unlock the game creatively. but, i might be proven wrong later.

In conclusion, a really great way to progress forward. i only expected a draw yesterday. we were like on the same level with Hk a few years ago but now, we made them look like schoolboys. I'm not expecting the players to challenge England or Brazil immediately. we have to be realistic. I think the 2015 Asia Cup qualification is a realistic target. Lets keep supporting the players no matter what.

In terms of strength in the AFC, i think here where we are:

Rank A: Japan, Australia, South Korea, Iran. could beat any European team but not traditional superpowers.
Rank B: Most gulf countries (Saudi, Kuwait, UAE etc) Uzbekistan, Iraq, China, North Korea
Rank C: Lesser gulf countries (Oman,etc), Thailand, Indonesia, Hong Kong
Rank D: Others in AFC but still decent eg; Vietnam, Singapore, India
Rank E: Really weak teams like Bhutan, Timor Leste

I think we are gearing towards rank B at a right pace. now, we should have more friendlies away from home to improve our away form. at home, we are good.

cerita-ceriti

well, been cramming in the lib 4 the ielts and feel like really wanna scream in the lib. really boring stuff. but as this person exp, o.5 does make a difference so i better watch out.

So, read is what i did n i came across a book dat i had read in my primary school and had been looking 4 it since. Its called Siri Cerita 25 Nabi and i doubt whether i'll come across it at any book store again since it was published in 1987. what great about this book is dat it is easily to read and gaya penceritan dia pun menarik, xboring. and the family connection is always mentioned so you know who's related to who. So, for those who are in despair and in need, i'm gonna quote two stories from the book.

1. Kisah Nabi Yusuf A.S

Thrown into jail due to Zulaikha lies, Nabi Yusuf a.s couldn't anymore happier to escape from the worldly temptations and that Allah had granted his wish to be jailed. There, he preached to the inmates about Allah and that only He deserved to be worshiped. There he met this two guy Saqi and Khilaz, who came to know about his ability to interpret and predict dreams. Having told him their dream, Nabi Yusuf a.s predict that Saqi will be reappointed into the palace staff again within the next three days while Khilaz will be executed, also within the next three days. His prediction came true by Allah's will and while Saqi was leaving the cell, Nabi Yusuf a.s mentioned to him, "don't forget to tell the Egyptian ruler about my ability and that i had intepreted and predicted your dream and that i was wrongly prisoned." Saqi said that he will. So, Nabi Yusuf a.s waited, and waited....for seven years long. seem that Saqi had forgotten about his message.

Then, malaikat Jibril pun came to the jail and asked to Nabi Yusuf a.s, Siapa yang menjadikanmu?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang menjadikan wajahmu cantik?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang mengeluarkanmu dari perigi?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang menyelamatkanmu dari bencana Zulaikha dan Siapa yang menjadikan kanak-kanak itu sebagai saksi?."Tuhanku, Tuhanku".
Jika begitu, kenapa kamu minta tolong kepada makhluk lain, bukan Allah?. Sambung Jibril lagi, moyangmu Ibrahim, sewaktu dicampakkan ke dalam api meminta pertolongan dari Allah. Mendengar kata-kata itu, Nabi Yusuf a.s pengsan. Sesudah pengsan,beliau bangun lalu menangis sehingga 7 hari, ada riwayat yang menagatakan hingga 10 hari.

2. Kisah Nabi Ayub a.s

Long story cut short, this is after his children had been killed by Allah's will and after he had contracted the skin disease which caused worms to nest in it, also by Allah's will after satan had asked for it. His wife asked, when will our suffering ends? we had suffer long enough. (3-4 years if i'm not mistaken). Nabi Ayub a.s answered, "Allah had given us plenty of rezeki for 60 years and now He'd only took back what is His for only 3 years. what right do we have to complain?" and then his wife asked for Nabi Ayub a.s to ask Allah to alleviate their suffering but Nabi Ayub replied, sesungguhnya aku malu hendak meminta dengan Allah kerana Dia hanya mengambil balik hakNya. then. we all knw what happen next. and he never ever ask Allah to ease his suffering at all.

So, adik-adik, point to ponder,

baru kena ujian 3-4 bulan dah komplen, Allah bagi nikmat 25 tahun xmintak balasan pape pun, pernah kita bersyukur kat setiap apa yang Allah beri? the air we breath, the ability for our lungs to expand, the cleanliness of the air we breath, the creation of nostrils, mouth, throat as the passage for the air...i can rant forever and it wont still be enuff..

dok mintak tolong kat orang sini sana tapi forget to mintak kat Allah. apa kuasa sgt orang2 ni ada? lemah sgt. makin lama makin putus asa tapi nabi Yususf dan Nabi Ayub tu mintak doa sampai 7 tahun xpernah putus. Ni xdpt sikit nk frust dah. memalukan. n Saidina Ali bin Abi Talib r.a pernah pesan jangan terjebak ke lembah kefakiran kerana dengannya datang kehinaan and fakir itu membuat jiwa dan iman menjadi lemah. selalulah bersadaqah kerana sadaqah itu berterusan dan pulangannya lebih. jauhilah penyakit Al-wahan, yakni cintakan dunia.

n the stunning discovery that i found is dat the world never changes. dari dulu sampai sekrg camtu je. this gen kena bala, then insaf, then lupa, then wat balik, then kena bala balik.dari zaman Nabi Adam a.s lagi.

of kos, i'm talking bout myself and anyone who come across this bole la wat ikitbar. peace.

new country lagi.

In the next 5 months, there will be a new independent country presumably, named Southern Sudan. Now, congratulations to them and may they live in peace after this. Now, for the history of the conflict that lead to the separation of the country can be found here.

Now, what I strongly feel as a sense of injustice here is that, as long as i can remember, these are the countries that had formed in my lifetime; Kazakhstan, Uzbekistan, Turkmenistan, Tajikistan, Kyrgyzstan, Georgia, Armenia, Azerbaijan (Former Soviet in Asia) in the early 90s, Ukraine, Moldova, Lithuania, Latvia, Estonia, Belarus (Former Soviet in Europe) in the early 90s as well, Slovakia ( separated from the former Czechoslovakia) in the 94/95 in think?, Croatia, Slovenia, Macedonia, Bosnia- Herzegovina in the mid 90s, Serbia, Montenegro, Kosovo just recently. Closer to home we got East Timor in the mid 2000s. This is all i can remember, shucks, i cant remember Vietnam unification.

Now, the formation of South Sudan is similar to East Timor. Civil War between Christians and Muslims and then, come international intervention, and the Christians side was separated, given independence and hailed as the victor. Now, where the international intervention for southern Thailand, Xinjiang, Tibet, Kashmir, Palestine, Dagestan, to name a few..as if the intervention will come to places that bears importance to the benefactor.call me naive but this is injustice. hiding behind the mask of democracy.

Books does lie

in case u havent know it, the biggest story in football today is the transfer of Fernando Torres from Liverpool to Chelsea for 50 mil pounds. While it is not met with much enthusiasm by Liverpool fans, his decision is completely understandable...from a football perspective that is..i mean, a move to a football club that is constantly challenging for the EPL and the UCL, also with a bigger remuneration package. He won everything at international football and now it's time for club honors.

It's a similar case when he left Atleti. Goin to a bigger club, gunning for trophies. Then, Rafa left, n i guess he doesn't see that the club is goin forward anymore, with the boardroom turmoil and all. Best of luck at Chelsea then n probably he'll have to wait till next year cuz Arsenal is gonna win the League and FA cup, Man U is gonna win the league and Barcelona is gonna win the UCL. I really think he should go to Barca though, if he really wanna move. Sadly, Barca already had Villa, and goin to Real would be the greatest sin he'll ever commit in his life.

Now, I'm an Arsenal but i really have a great affection for Torres. Not only he's a superb footballer with his darting runs, silky moves, and precise finishing, but also as a person. He's not the Cristiano type who cannot live with out a camera focusing at him. He's just, like,... one of us, i could say. This had led be to buy his book, and I never buy a footballer autobiography before. just read from kududan or wiki. So, his story is really intriguing and really been an inspiration to me on how to adapt. and the theme of the book is constantly, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty..to Atleti, to Liverpool.. that what makes me respect him so much...he talks about his desire to be a one-man team like Raul, Maldini, Totti..and how's Liverpool fans is the greatest in the world (this point is sumtin I agree with, its really like a graveyard at the Emirates).

well, guess what mate? you just betrayed the greates fans in the world. can u imagine pledging your loyalty to sumbody for years and then, left them, when they not achiving..that's hypocrisy! not loyalty. you know why people like Raul and Totti gain so much respect in the footballing world? They stick with their team through thick and thin. Raul's been there when the club at it's greastest and lowest and so did Totti. u think how many times Totti contemplated with the idea of goin to Milan or Juve to win the UCL? but hell no, he has his dignity and pride. His skin would burn if he was ever to wear another team shirt. What happen to worms who betrayed their club to seek glory? i can give u 3 different example:

1) Michael Owen. go to biggest club in the world and had been on a downward spiral ever since. read his auto also ahaha.

2) Monkey Cole. yeah, he wins trophies and stuff but as a human, he lost his value. Nobody likes him at all and he's gonna die a sad man cuz he also betrayed his wife afterwards.

3) Luis Figo. Despised by both sets of barca, madrid tried to embrace him, but they love zinade more.

u see, medals do matter, but the value of the medal is more important..Djimi Traore had a UCL medal but do people remember him? heck, no! u gonna look at ur medal when ur old and say, this is how i won this and this. so, if u won it in an honorable way, ull be proud to tell ur story every single time. if not, u r goin 2 b so ashamed of ur self dat the medal is goin to the attic or e-bay.

for now, i'm soo done with autobiographies..i'm gonna read them when they retire..n see what bipolar-alcoholic-cirrhotic developed Monkey Cole would write then.

bijak bijak bijak sifir

saw a tweet by a kmb jr bout math Ib n i must say dat i had a really wonderful exp wit it. well, b4 goin to mrsm, i was effortlessly doin math but still excelling it. dunno y, but everyhing seems really easy to grasp during dat time. then, came mrsm, n i actually failed my 1st add math test. actually its the 1st time i failed in any paper in my whole life!

so, it eventually turned out 2 b dat i will flunk math during these two mrsm years. but, i really surprised myself during this one time. me, ikram and piee, the beserian add math god, like, super god, always 90%++, were preping. then, they were discussing dis one prob 4 like, 30 minutes. i was just too bored to get involved n was doodling instead. then, fed up dat depa lama sgt bincang, i was like, mana, meh nk try. then, scrib scrib scrib, tadaa. they was like, whoo, betul sial! n i was like, whoo, aku le jwb soalan piee xle wat sial! ada bakat gk aku nih..hahaha

but, add math already did its damage thus leadin me to take med, under the false pretense dat i shall not encounter any more math after dis. masuk2 banting...barua, asal ada maths lagik!!! so, lets just say dat i really dont get maths Ib at all..n the more dahsyat thing was my classmates were all cekap2, n i mean all of them!! ada la kot syafiq sorg dgn aku yg xtau pape. so, my result was like dis, 5, then 4, then 3..ahaha..which led me to be placed in the kelas pemutihan..ahaha..mmg lawak gila la.

so, i was like to go n c pn.khuzaimi every week on a monday, if i'm not mistaken. but, i never did. mmg as fate had meant it 2 b, every monday mesti ada benda berlaku. demam, ada kena panngl dgn pengetua then apa2 lagi..sampai sbln++..but pn.khuzaimi never asked n never made a fuss about it. feelin guilty, i decided to write a letter to her..mmg detailed la letter 2..ada kronology of wut happen lg..ahaha..then, she replied my letter sayin its ok as long as im studying on my own.

so, terjadi la satu event yg mmg aku xkn lupakn ni..satu hari, kelas kol 800 kot dimana sume mmg tgh blur n ngantuk, pn.khuzaimi asked, ok, now who wants to explain to me about the vector? usually because of the smartness and semangatness of my class, there will be one or two hands raised. tapi, takdak, xtau la depa ngantuk or mmg xtahu..then, how bout u kamal? i dunno how or why, just put it fate, dat i did read about it the last nite before. n i never ever read/do exercise/discuss math during the nite. just melalak kt bilik membe or my room or common room or bilik tv. mmg xtahu mcm mana i picked up my note book dat nite. then , i explained la tara, tara, tara...satu kelas ternganga....ahahhaha...pn.khuzaimi pun tersnyum puas ati. afterwards those guys were like, weh, camne ko le power nih? hahah..n dats was my proudest math ib moment. before the inevitable final doom..it the first paper dat i was to scribe anything, nk hentam pun xde idea! punya blank. halfway, i put my head on the table and saw erickuey was looking at me as well wit the blank look..sigh..n 4 the next 30 minutes i had already planned to open a charkueyteow stall if i didn't make it. or take up perikanan or persuratan at uitm..hahahaha

how i managed to get a 6?i had the african Ib students to thank.

-wish math was this easy-

yet another stupidity by the mmc

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2011&dt=0105&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Kampus&pg=ka_02.htm

dunno wut will happen to these guyz..kesian sgt