tensen

hari ni mmg bersejarah.aku ingat selama ni aku la ho plg bangang dan xguna kat msia ni. tp hari ni, aku dpt satu shif dgn org yg lg dasyat dari aku. grad uk lak tu. patut power aa kan. sekali cait, hapah pn xreti. tp tu xkisah la kan. kalau da bangan tu blaja la. ni x. pemalas gile. keje satu hapah pn xwat. masuk shif, lenggang, sampai nk habes shif baru wat2 rajin. pala hotak ko! aku kisah org bodo sbb aku pun bodo. aku xkisah malas sbb aku pun malas. tapi sampai xwat keje, patient nk mati pun le wat dono. ni dah kronik tahap gaban ni. xpe la, thanks to her aku kena jd lebih rajin dan pandai.tq2. pastu bab solat dgn rehat ckp jaga. bagus la, balik2 patient dah in shock ha ambik. mmg la aku jahat tinggal semayang, tapi kalau aku g semayang sapa nk tgk patient tu? dah nk k.o da, heart rate low, bp high gile. Allah maha adil dan mengetahui la. ko wat camni kat org ko tgk la balasan ko nnt. nama je alim konon, tapi mkn gaji xhalal. keje pun hapah xwat. aku mmg perangai cm syial tp time keje aku wat aa keje aku. da aku tau aku ni mkn gaji n gaji tu nk jadi darah daging aku. org2 len dok mengata gk mula2 tapi aku xcaya lg. sekali kena ha,bygkn aku ni yg penyabar ni, le baran dgn die. da nama dr wat aa keje dr, ko bkn medical student lg. hai, camna la le grad uk. wat malu je.

80s playlist

cerita hijrah

totally just realized that this year maal hijrah coincide with my hijrah. time to move on. i mean the past year was full of endings. here i list down people who passed away during the last year. Long jam, Hafizah, Gary Speed, Socrates, Steve Jobs, Osama Bin Laden, Muammar Gaddafi. ajal maut xmengenal usia dan siapa. kita pn xle jamin kita still akan idup esok kn?

so live life. dont waste time regretting. i mean ask la 4 forgiveness and repent but don't waste time with 'what if...' or 'i should have...'whts done its done. cuz time doesnt wait. if its gone its gone. and hope and aims are essential.

and sometimes, hijrah is necessary. Rasullullah did everything he could and leaves Mecca with a heavy heart but the hijra to Medina was necessary. I also leave becoz it was necessary. otherwise, i would have been eaten up, lose my sense and sanity, and probably inhibit my future growth. what if i didn't went to.

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now is not the time 4 'what if'.
now's the time 4 living life to its fullest.

baru pindah

suda ujan sini bah, baru mau pigi jaian. rupanya ada satu jaian dekat dengan hospital saja.

living here has made me thankful.thankful 4 all this nikmat dat im missing:
-nikmat surau ada di mana2 saja
-nikmat solat berjemaah
-nikmat mendengar alunan azan
-nikmat dapat tgk tv semua channel
-nikmat ada remote control
-nikmat makanan yang sedap2
-nikmat ada orang nk sembang
-nikmat naik kereta
-nikmat cahaya matahari
-nikmat mesin basuh auto

despite all this, i really like things this way. this is enough for me.
dunno y but maybe its my adventurous soul kot.
what's next on the list?
dekat2 dulu kot, pulau gaya weekend trip ke.
kinabalu maybe tengah tahun kot, insyaAllah.
tunggu berat badan jadi unggul dulu. kikiki

ujan suda stop tapi awan-awan nano itu masih ada