TimeIsNotOnMySide2

tensen

2011-12-15T05:55:00.000-08:00

hari ni mmg bersejarah.aku ingat selama ni aku la ho plg bangang dan xguna kat msia ni. tp hari ni, aku dpt satu shif dgn org yg lg dasyat dari aku. grad uk lak tu. patut power aa kan. sekali cait, hapah pn xreti. tp tu xkisah la kan. kalau da bangan tu blaja la. ni x. pemalas gile. keje satu hapah pn xwat. masuk shif, lenggang, sampai nk habes shif baru wat2 rajin. pala hotak ko! aku kisah org bodo sbb aku pun bodo. aku xkisah malas sbb aku pun malas. tapi sampai xwat keje, patient nk mati pun le wat dono. ni dah kronik tahap gaban ni. xpe la, thanks to her aku kena jd lebih rajin dan pandai.tq2. pastu bab solat dgn rehat ckp jaga. bagus la, balik2 patient dah in shock ha ambik. mmg la aku jahat tinggal semayang, tapi kalau aku g semayang sapa nk tgk patient tu? dah nk k.o da, heart rate low, bp high gile. Allah maha adil dan mengetahui la. ko wat camni kat org ko tgk la balasan ko nnt. nama je alim konon, tapi mkn gaji xhalal. keje pun hapah xwat. aku mmg perangai cm syial tp time keje aku wat aa keje aku. da aku tau aku ni mkn gaji n gaji tu nk jadi darah daging aku. org2 len dok mengata gk mula2 tapi aku xcaya lg. sekali kena ha,bygkn aku ni yg penyabar ni, le baran dgn die. da nama dr wat aa keje dr, ko bkn medical student lg. hai, camna la le grad uk. wat malu je.

80s playlist

2011-12-11T02:55:00.000-08:00

cerita hijrah

2011-12-04T06:05:00.000-08:00

totally just realized that this year maal hijrah coincide with my hijrah. time to move on. i mean the past year was full of endings. here i list down people who passed away during the last year. Long jam, Hafizah, Gary Speed, Socrates, Steve Jobs, Osama Bin Laden, Muammar Gaddafi. ajal maut xmengenal usia dan siapa. kita pn xle jamin kita still akan idup esok kn?

so live life. dont waste time regretting. i mean ask la 4 forgiveness and repent but don't waste time with 'what if...' or 'i should have...'whts done its done. cuz time doesnt wait. if its gone its gone. and hope and aims are essential.

and sometimes, hijrah is necessary. Rasullullah did everything he could and leaves Mecca with a heavy heart but the hijra to Medina was necessary. I also leave becoz it was necessary. otherwise, i would have been eaten up, lose my sense and sanity, and probably inhibit my future growth. what if i didn't went to.

.....

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now is not the time 4 'what if'.
now's the time 4 living life to its fullest.

baru pindah

2011-12-03T20:53:00.000-08:00

suda ujan sini bah, baru mau pigi jaian. rupanya ada satu jaian dekat dengan hospital saja.

living here has made me thankful.thankful 4 all this nikmat dat im missing:
-nikmat surau ada di mana2 saja
-nikmat solat berjemaah
-nikmat mendengar alunan azan
-nikmat dapat tgk tv semua channel
-nikmat ada remote control
-nikmat makanan yang sedap2
-nikmat ada orang nk sembang
-nikmat naik kereta
-nikmat cahaya matahari
-nikmat mesin basuh auto

despite all this, i really like things this way. this is enough for me.
dunno y but maybe its my adventurous soul kot.
what's next on the list?
dekat2 dulu kot, pulau gaya weekend trip ke.
kinabalu maybe tengah tahun kot, insyaAllah.
tunggu berat badan jadi unggul dulu. kikiki

ujan suda stop tapi awan-awan nano itu masih ada

The philosophical me

2011-10-27T00:23:00.000-07:00

-A good storyteller tells, a great storyteller elaborates, a legendary storyteller confabulates-
Guru Kores, circa 2011.

awat la hg pi blah

2011-08-15T23:36:00.001-07:00

crap..i really2 feel cesc departure..furthermore, there's a CL qualifying match 2nite..rite nw, i really mcm org putus cinta. sumbody did told me to forget it and move on. but..it stings..time to play the script on my playlist, the best break up cure..n buka posa pun xlalu ni...sampainya hatimuuu~~meninggalkan aku~~

berkabung

2011-08-15T18:57:00.000-07:00

...seyes rasa mcam tgh putus cinta...asal la ko blah fabregas oii..sedih dow. ibarat kata2 seorg ni. mcm anak angkat la, bela2 sampai besar, pastu dia nk balik kt real parents dia. apa yg kite le wat?

Cesca Fabregasy

2011-08-14T20:43:00.000-07:00

ai, sedih la.

2day fabregas is officially joining barca. we shud really start a campaign to bring in messi in every transfer window after this, until they finally tire and sell him to us.

I wish him all the best tho. he tried really hard to rally the team to success but nobody responded so, i guess it's time to start fresh.

so, y dont we recap my unforgettable memory bout him?

1) that delicious tackle on vieira when nobody gives us a chance against Juve. in ur face pat!

2) That solo goal from halfline against spurs.

3) the penalty that broke his leg

dats about it. adios amigo. RVP for captain!

mengata dulang paku serpih

2011-08-11T23:43:00.000-07:00

there is a tjk perasaan at the front of masjid negeri. bout the jais raid issue.apprantlty..(wait, just being interrupted by a schizo person, said got it since 94 n now on cpz, n got side-effects dy. asking 4 sum duit.)so, apprently thy believe tht the church is trying to convert these muslims but we shall not just into any conclsions yet. wait 4 the report to be released.

wht i like to discuss now is, as i just sembang dgn brader sebelah ni, to get to the root of the problem instead of barking at the superfcial ones. y do thy even wanna go 2 chruch to buka puasa? is the identity crisis of us malay muslims nowadays. to be polarised into either the religious conservative group or into the modernised western group. even so, whts more important is the depth of our faith. if we truly are faithful, joining such a dinner wouldnt be a problem.

but, have a look at our youth nowadays?? do you have any faith in them? kecik2 da pukul, bunuh, rogol,zina, buang bayi. where's the fault? if this problem could be tackled, then we dun have to worry bout our people anymore. curb the social problems. these are our future.

BOla is Back!

2011-08-10T21:14:00.000-07:00

yuhuu..after months without proper footie n only on iv fm2009 and women world cup, and im malaysian team and epl frendlys, football is back. tho it seems dat i did watch a lot football dis summer.

(Live)
Arsenal vs Malaysia
Malaysia vs Singapore

sampai da boring da g bkt jalil tu.

ok epl 2011/12 predictions:

1. Manchester United
2. Liverpool Fc
3. Manchester City
4. Arsenal Fc
5. Chelsea Fc
6. Tottenham Hotspurts
7. Everton
8. Fulham
9. Sunderland
10. Stoke
11. Newcastle
12. Bolton
13. Aston Villa
14. West Bromwich Albion
15. Wigan Athletic
16. Queen Park Rangers
17. Wolverhampton Wanderers
18. Norwich City Fc
19. Swansea
20. Blackburn Rovers

Sick of Malaysian politics

2011-08-07T20:22:00.000-07:00

dunno y but after reading the news 2day i really felt sick bout the state of our politics. n i just wish it would stop n go back to the day b4 the political tsunami. yeah, i admit, it was really exciting initially to see the opposition finally got the voice to bash the government and hopefully, keep them in check. but sadly, the opposite had happened. rather than keeping them in check, they used it for personal gains.

i bet nobody knows my true political view to date cuz i seem to be supporting this side at one point and the other at one point. they called people like me lalang la, xda pendirian, bacul. but the truth is, i can't commit to either bcoz none seems any good and the other. (insert political news from 2008 until now)y am i worrying rite now? bcuz i have to vote in the upcoming election.

so, i will be put up to choose against this 3 option:

1) vote for the ruling party.
2) vote for the opposition.
3) abstain/ vote bebas (if any)

while i'm thankful to live in a democratic country and has the right to vote, it's sad that the winner ie; majority tends to ignore the minority when it wins. that's when hatred and grudge boils. look at the result of the last election, the pattern is usually like this. the majority wins by 52%, or 54%. the minority gets only 48% of the votes. 48% usually equivalent to almost 20,000 of people. trouble happen when you ignore 20,000 people in one constituent. due to dissatisfaction or perception that injustice is being served.

in my humble view, what we want is justice. Malaysian are seeded with a high moral value and ideals. That's why you see that people wiling to say bad words, calling names, seek dirty tactics just to uphold the justice that they believe in. now, i'm not gonna say which side holds the true justice bcuz if you really look into it, none is. What i want to say is, with justice, will come economic development, lower the gaps between the rich and the poor, higher purchasing power, reduce unemployment, reduce inflation, reduce corruption, reduce crime rates. I'm not asking for Captain America or Spiderman to come and serve it to us but i believe the politicians can. to bad it seem to be a really big ask for them. why? because they don't want to tolerate or in other words, lose out. lose out on money, shares, influence, votes.

One politician that i know since childhood (sapa lagi kan?) really change with time. What start out as a really noble mission to protect and serve the people, bring development and prosperity upon him embarking in politics has now, turns into a mission to save his and his own decendants own periuk nasi. it's like the noble houseman mission to become the head of department in hope to better the condition of houseman. "Nanti aku jadi specialist/ head of department, aku mesti layan pekerja aku elok-elok" is a famous quote that could be heard in the thoughts of each houseman since the days of dulu-dulu lagi.

2011-07-21T21:03:00.001-07:00

since entering the adult world, the theme constantly running thruout is money, cars, home while previously it was fun, and chicks. the constrast was appaling cuz it was like yesterday were talking bout the coolest band and some stupid lame jokes and now it was about investment, insurance and stuff you wont give a damn bout when u awas a student. cuz during student life, you could easily survive a week with rm10 on maggi and ais kosong. but why cant you do so when you entered the adut life? what has changed?

it comes down to these two factors, i think,

1) more commitment. dis one cannot say anything la. mmg betul pun. but, pepel say makin betambah bilangan, rezeki pun makin bertambah.

or

2) more desire. ya la, imagine suddenly you get thousands whilst b4 you only get hundreds. its like dulu2 dapat 20sen g sekolah, so le beli eskem pop or gula2 je. then jd teenager dapat puluh2 so le la nk smart sket, le beli ray ban celup, jam guess celup, then dapat ratus2 le aa angkat enset ada kaler, ringtone pun le men lagu, klu x lagu nokia je kuar. so, with more income > more desire la. can afford what?

dats y i already outline what i want specifically and i'll work to get these stuff. after that i'm content. greed consumes the human in you,you know. nnt xberkesudahan kejar dunia je. get my car? setel. get my crib? setel. done wit ma bucket list? setel.

then, after dat what r u goin to do?, you might ask..well dear, i just gonna play football manager til i die. muahaha

one hour from love

2011-07-20T19:25:00.000-07:00

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kate org jiwang2 ape? lautan api pun sanggup ku renangi..hehe..xoxo

Arse

2011-07-13T19:38:00.000-07:00

So, Arsenal is coming to Malaysia. at first, i decided not to give a damn cuz i had already seen them back in the emirates but finally, upon discovered that i could get free tickets and training passes,i decided to join the bandwagon after all. haha..

so, my quest for free ticket began.
sunday, after subuh, i dashed to OU and arrived around 7am. wah, syok gile rasa igtkn dah jd org first in line la ni. aku masuk kot pintu belakang sebab pintu depan ttp n dok cari2 mane studio V ni. then, dlm kegelapan tu, jumpa la. so, aku sampai kat main entrance tgk xde org. sekali kat luar tu line beratur da panjang da. haha. abg yg 1st tu muka mmg bengkek abes,mmg da tahap le pukul org da, igt aku ptg line die. rupanye dia da beratur dari kol 2 pagi lagi. gilak. siap tido kat situ. rupenye the first 3 in line get to meet the players. no wonder he's so pissed. so, i masuk line, dpt la around no 80. thn, sembang2. thn, ada cubaan siot utk ptg line dpean aku.yg xle tahan tu, siap tny aku ni, abg dtg kol bp? aku jwb 7. u dtg kol bp? ...aaa, 8. camne ko le dok depan aku lak? ape da..

-org depan aku-

-org belakang aku. tiket nk bagi 180, yg belakang tu tgg ape xtau la-

thn approx, 10 o clock pintu bukak , thn i give my the star coupon (collect 4 5 days) n get i free ticket worth rm68. smile.......

-tiket-

now, training pass.
dis one mencabar sket. collect 10 coupon from Kosmo alredy n need to go to Melawati ko redeem it. so, i took the wrong highway, end up in the MRR 2 on my bike, could got kill a few times and finally reached destination after 1 and a half hour. aku tau area dekat umah kudud je sebab penah g sekali. nice la the area, tenang, sebab belakang tu bukit. then sampai, lepak2 sembang2, amek trainig pass. smile..........

-aku org no.10 dlm line, esok dlm paper kosmo ade gambar aku,hehe-

-training pass-

then, g la tgk training. start at 7pm. before dat hang out dgn che a.

-no slr, no photoshop, just pure photography talent-

best gk tgk trainig sbb aku dpt dok kt grandstand area tu. nampak la player2 msia n arsenal. not bad la team season ni, tapi masalah lama mcm menular lagi la. still dono depan goal. miyaichi ok. die byk fan tp dia malu2 kucing. sbb die baru pas spm. baru 18. xde membe dlm team lak tu. kalau aku pun segan kan. baru masuk keje xkn nk tjk star lak.

-Szczney dgn Mannone tgh warm-up, le nampak ke?-

esok, g la match. rupe nye patut la tiket free, seat kat dgn sky window haa, bole capai segala bulan dan bintang. tapi le la nampak match. syok match. aku mmg berbelah bagi gile. 2 2 chenta hati ku. macam nk kena pilih bini 1st ke, bini 2nd. last2 aku pilih msia. mmg aku sapot msia throughout the whole match. arsenal score pun aku xcelebrate sbb aku xrasa apa2. nw, i know where my loyalty lies. bini tua yg menang. ahaha. kita play not bad, ada plan , n tau apa yg patut di buat. tapi mmg jurang teknikal n speed tu luas. xpe2, yg penting wat pengajaran. n menang singapore. tu lg penting. then, time nk balik aku sa'i la balik ke ara moto aku. sebab aku dpt green gate n aku parking kat red gate, so mmg kena sa'i setengah stadium. otw, nk balik, tu aku pelik asal depa ni dok gayut kat pagar ni. g la cek.oo, rupenya bas player. so, nampak la muka player msia, arsenal seketul depan muka aku. safee, safiq, apeq, rajagopal. pastuh, ryo (muka cuak gile xtau asal tp tgn dok lambai), van persie, nasri pakai headphone gedabak tu corak bintang, vermaelen da tido, song bajet macho. smile....

oleh sbb gambar yg len sume gamba semut, yg kat bus jd blur lak, syg tol, so xyh nk upload.

berbaloi x? of kos.

tingin aa lak nk amek sport science jd doc arsenal. ehehe.

Long Kiss Goodbye-Halcali

2011-07-13T00:52:00.000-07:00

da xjupe da pasnih. huhu sedey.

mokcik hypo

2011-07-07T20:14:00.000-07:00

when a makcik beside u at a street said the word 'hypo', u know that malaysians nowadays are totally educated.

which is sad given the fact that unemployment remains at its best. waste of human resources. totally. who's to blame? bad governance and management.

the people are gearing towards a developed country in a steady pace.
sadly, the government forget to tag along and are lagging behind.

hey, dont believe what i said? drop by in to a gov hosp nearby u and see what i meant. the staff attitude reflects their superiors. and the superiors attitude are inspired by whom? their superiors. enuff said.

sayang kan to see the country's potential being drained to waste. we need leaders who is with the people, not against them. Rasullullah was pelted with stones, excretion ,thorns in his dakwah. did he ever bite back the people he preached to? in the end they succumb to his kindness and could see the truth that he brings.

malaysian leaders nowadays? if ur not with me, then ur my sworn enemy! xde belajar langsung persuasion technique, bodek2 la rakyat tu. baru negara aman. xda la demostration.

random quotes of the day

2011-07-05T20:26:00.000-07:00

-sesungguhnya dunia ni amatlah kecik

-kite yg pernah susah paham apa perasaan org yg susah

-Allah has He's own unique and lovely way to give lessons to us

-Karma will always come to bite u in the *ss

-balik pulau tu kecik je, betul. bak kata mat rani, bewak mati kat kongsi pun, jalan bole jam.

the rzon

2011-07-05T17:58:00.000-07:00

Reasons y i like wednesday:

-feel good factor frm watching si capik the prev nite
-tiket wayang murah
-days of good news
-always felt like a holiday
-or the day when sense of urgency kicks in cz u knw the week is gonna finish
-CL football

transfer stori

2011-06-21T23:32:00.000-07:00

Since there's no activity from arsene wenger, here's my two cents on who sould go and stay

1 GK Manuel Almunia -pls sell to anywhere i dun care.
2 MF Abou Diaby -see above.
3 DF Bacary Sagna -keep
4 MF Cesc Fàbregas (captain)- if he stays good, if not i dun care.
5 DF Thomas Vermaelen -keep.
6 DF Laurent Koscielny -keep.
7 MF Tomáš Rosický -luv him but he shud go.
8 MF Samir Nasri -keep, it'll b a loss if he goes.
10 FW Robin van Persie (vice-captain)-keep
11 FW Carlos Vela -time's up. go to spain.
13 GK Jens Lehmann -be a coach.
14 FW Theo Walcott -keep.
15 MF Denílson -refer manuel almunia.
16 MF Aaron Ramsey -keep. future capt.
17 MF Alex Song -keep.
18 DF Sébastien Squillaci -keep 4 cover n exp.
19 MF Jack Wilshere -keep.
20 DF Johan Djourou -sell bcuz 2 stupid.
21 GK Łukasz Fabiański -sell, expired already.
22 DF Gaël Clichy -see johan djourou.
23 MF Andrei Arshavin -keep, but if offer >10mil then sell.
24 GK Vito Mannone -sell to italy.
27 MF Emmanuel Eboué -sell to black market slave trading.
28 DF Kieran Gibbs -keep.
29 FW Marouane Chamakh -keep.
30 DF Armand Traoré -sell to france.
35 MF Emmanuel Frimpong -promote.
40 MF Craig Eastmond -reserve
41 MF Jay Emmanuel-Thomas -promote as target man.
46 MF Henri Lansbury -promote
52 FW Nicklas Bendtner -sell to bundesliga.
53 GK Wojciech Szczęsny -keep.

so, obviously, we,re gonna be thin rite after selling all the deadwood.
players tht shud come in: (thoug wenger would be 2 srupid to do this)

Gk-Lloris (top gk, french, cant go far wit lyon. but comes with a big price tag)
DR-van der Wiel (cover 4 sagna, frens wit RvP n Tommy V alredi)
DL-Coentrao (easily b our 1st choice DL, hard 2 c wit madrid alredi selling their virus)
CD-Sakho (next Thuram, french)
DM- Matuidi (next Makelele, french, comp 4 song tho he'll win)
RM- Navas (excellent on the wing, sevilla on the drop, prone 2 homesick tho)
LM- Kagawa (or just use our own Ryo Miyaichi! big fan of him alredi)

other than this, were fine.strikers?
RvP- our technical, skillful type.
Theo- our pacy, Henry type.
Chamakh- our big, target man type.
Arshaving- our dribbler type.

-our next Overmars n Pires, ensem mcm takuya kimura-

nihon go shiken

2011-06-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

私わ日本語試験五十六チャートました .頑張る!

got 56 in my 1st jap xm. keep on goin! i can barely read any of those kanji above. thnk god 4 google tlate.

p/s: dont paste the above sentence into google tlate. u'll laugh. yup, my grammar and hombun terrible.

The paradox of angry birds.

2011-06-14T18:38:00.000-07:00

yesterday i was playin angry birds and i was fuming mad bcoz of:
i) no matter what i did the blocks wont fall down.
ii) made worse to see the a beat up pig grinning at you. just die already.

i'm sure this just a thing dat everyone playing angry birds exp.

but, today, on my first attempt at the level that i'm stuck yest, without even thinking n just pulling the sling, i managed to clear the level in a single shot. wow.

thus, making me tought of life. our life.

sometimes, no matter how hard you try, the results just wont came.
not that it is our fault for trying though.
n later in the future, things just went smooth without even trying.

i guess it's Allah way of making us learning and enjoying life.
making it more fun, exciting and pleasurable.
to make us realize that we are actually powerless. a nobody.
and that all will and and force, plans and destiny is by his will.
and as easy as He's saying kun fa ya kun.

dats y kite selalu dgr ustat2 ckp, Allah uji tu sebab dia sayang.
if he doesn't, you'll just be a 9-5 rat and people will be chain smoking at your funeral, discussing about the latest cars, or their life instead.

-angry birds makes me an angry boy-

pareto's rule

2011-06-12T21:36:00.000-07:00

know the difference between being efficient, procrastinating and time wasting.

currently reading : hot, flat and crowded.

currently being forced to eat : kacang buncis.

there's a difference btween this and kacang panjang apparently.

bola bola bola

2011-05-18T20:18:00.001-07:00

well, the football season finally over. actually, i was over 4 me since the 89th minute of the carling cup final in feb, but nevertheless.
here's how the team next year shoud look, provided that we still play 4-3-3.

Gk-were fine here, allow sczney to develop n he shud buried the ghost of cc final behind him, making him a stronger person

def- clichy had been too stupid. sell him. vermaelen n sagna shud b able to lead the line. koscielny was superb against barca, so he just need to recover from the cc final. gibbs will fit in nicely.

mid-wht? no cesc. i doubt he would stay. nway, he gone to me since the 2nd leg against barca. shoes where he's heart is. i dun care. ramsey would fill in his shoes n he and wilshere will lead the mid. sell denilson, diaby, rosicky. promote lansbury.

att-again, i expect arshavin to be sold. he's from is great this year n i'm sure he'll be looking 4 a club who can win titles, such as birmingham FC. so, we got theo, rvp and nasri, with chamakh and JET as back up. vela n bendtner to be sold.

so, with this line up, we got winners mentality all over the pitch. any one who slacks off shud a bollocking by either, tommy V, Aaron, Jack or Robin. this shud made the players all die to play 4 arsenal. bring in tony adams as assistant to instill the spirit back in the team.

pls la win sth next year. we are to good to be trophyless.

let the k-pop fever continues lagi

2011-05-17T19:47:00.000-07:00

-2ne1, lonely-

also new fr 2ne1.
kalau lonely lyn le lagu nih.

let the k-pop fever continues

2011-05-17T19:45:00.000-07:00

-love song, bigbang-

If you hate this love song, then why r u singing it?
nice vid clip btw, cameraman pandai

Shampoo-After School

2011-05-05T17:22:00.000-07:00

-new fr afterschool, terus rasa nk shampoo kepala habaq hg-

Day 2- Non Hodgkin lymphoma

2011-04-28T20:40:00.000-07:00

Non-hodgkin lymphoma (NHL) is a malignancy of the lymphocytes. In simple words, it's cancer of the lymphatic system.

day 2 at the course saw the intensity of the course with numerous technical stuff need to b learned. hectic as it is, we still managed to get our breaks n it was during the zuhur prayer that i get my knock of the day.

usually, i rarely meddle with people business but feeling like making a bit of small talk, i decided to ask A(people confidentiality)why he was wearing an ankle guard."injured ke? terseliuh eh?"."tak ah.""abes, asal pakai ankle guard ni?""..aku kena lymphodema"...biar betul.it is then that i noticed what happened to his legs.

-what a lymphodema looked like-

then, we chatted. he was doing his masters in UK when he noticed that he had a lump. then, he decided not to undergo chemo cuz scared but as time pass by, the symptoms got worse, n he had to undergo 6 cycle of chemo. Now, for those who don't know, going for chemo is like being made to eat that will make u vomit. It's not pleasant.et al. It made u sick, nauseous, vomit, fatigue, lose weight, lose hair and it saps the energy and life out of you.

And then, he had to stop studying cuz he missed to much of the semester. He was advised to find an office job by the doc bcoz he’s condition wont enable to be outdoors anymore, prompting him to come to the course. Oh, and he’s been unemployed for 4 years…

I really take off my hat to this guy. I really had the utmost respect to any cancer sufferers or survivors. It’s not an easy thing. Dah la sakit, lama pulak tu, betahun-tahun. Kalau sakit lain, demam ke, jantung ke, sakit kejap je. N the medicine they took is horrible. N x semestinya sembuh lak tu. N afterwards, they need to start a new life from scratch. Imagine the enormous mental challenge that they been through. Berat mata yang memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikulnya.

He’s really been an inspiration to me. Cool je, n still happy je. As if, xde masalah langsung. Le berulang balik from negeri9 to the course everyday. He was a civil engineer and now he had to passed up that dream. At this point all that was going in my heads was, aku ingat aku dah teruk, ada lagi orang yg lg susah dari aku. In fact, almost all people, I presume, had their own deep, dark secret. I can sense it from their eyes n from their talk. Macam lirik lagu, masing2 ada masalah sendiri, masalah dunia, masalah peribadi. Yang kaya ada prob org kaya. Yg miskin ada prob org miskin.

From my observation, 7 out of the 12 people in the class ada masalah berat. 5 lagi tu ada masalah gak, tapi xseberat lagi 7 ni. 4 of them are employment related, 1 is familial related, 1 is either employment/financial and 1 is either familial/financial.

He’ll have his follow up next month n probably another vascular surgery to correct the lymphedema. Encik halim said he got a job alredy. Good for him.

Never lose faith

2011-04-26T17:23:00.000-07:00

Allahuakbar.

Aku pernah berdoa kepada Allah agar ditemukan dengan seorang yang mampu menjawab persoalan yang terbuku di pekungku. seorang alim atau seorang abid atau seorang guru. Jikalau ku tahu orang itu duduk di gua terpencil sekalipun, akan ku jejak beliau untuk menghuraikan buku-buku simpulan persoalan di benak ku ini. dan beberapa hari lalu, ku ulangi doaku ini, dalam keadaan basah kuyup disimbahi air hujan kota raya yang hangat.
'Ku tahu Kau sentiasa mendengar Ya Allah, tapi kenapa Kau tak menjawab?'ku bermonolog sendirian. persis orang kehilangan arah haluan. bak kapal tiada kemudi di lautan bergelora.

Allahuakbar.

Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Mendengar.السميع. Maha mengetahui rahasia. الخبير. Semalam tika ku sibuk dengan urusan duniaku, tiba2 ada sekumpulan manusia berkumpul untuk mendengar ceramah. 'Dipersilakan Asyraf imam muda untuk memberikan ceramahnya'. Terpaku diriku seketika. dahagaku terhadap ilmu tidak pernah puas, lantasku tinggalkan urusanku dan menyertai kumpulan itu. Inilah kali pertama aku melihar mahupun mendengar suara beliau. (Kerana selama ini, ku fikir yang asyraf muslim itu imam muda)Lalu bermulalah syarahan beliau, dan isinya adalah mengenai wasiat Luqman nur hakim kepada anaknya, sepertimana yang terdapat dalam Surah Luqman.

Ilmu yang kita ada ini sangatlah cetek. ibarat setitis air di lautan. Banyak yang kutimba semalam, mendengar kata-katanya, luluh hatiku, ibarat ditoreh dengan pisau belati dan berdarah kepanasan, pilu sangat. Pelbagai perkara yang ku persoalkan selama in terjawab. dan akan ku ingat katanya, Allah takkan uji seserorang itu melainkan dia tahu orang itu mampu menanggungnya, kerna Allah itu Maha Adil. Seberat mana ujian itu menunjukkan sebanyak mana Allah sayang padanya. memang aku lupa. memang aku tak bersyukur. Mampukan aku lulus ujianmu ini Ya Rab? Ya Allah, biarlah pengakhiranku di dalam Islam dan iman.

p/s: asyraf imammuda wins hands down against acap jambu penyu. xle celen.

Sayugianya..

2011-04-15T22:32:00.000-07:00

Well, I decided to start a 10 day blog post since I had enrolled in the 10 day course. One post each for the issue of the day. The course is great and I get to meet all kind of people. Ranging from 55+ to as young as 23 years old, the course acts as a melting pot, and blend is indeed what we do. Apart from one weirdo though, ahaha. I thank Allah for giving me Taufik and Hidayah when I asked for it, and less that I know that He intent to it in a way that you will only notice it after it has happened. Rediscovering yourself is totally easier said than done. You hear motivationist or preachers blab self improvement techniques and to do be a better person but 99% will not make a change. The 1% discovered it through the hard way. And don’t be surprised to find a Malay version of the post as well. I’m in the process to ‘melestarikan bahasa’. So, without further ado, here goes my so called blog-a-thon.

Day 1-The unemployment issue

Well, there was the introduction phase and later on, we chatted around. And thanks to that great enquiry instinct women possess, my cover was blown and I was made the leader of the course. Great, another burden to carry, but I suck at leading and soon they shall see. The food‘s being given twice so, we get to mingle during that period. Then, after many conversations, I found out that 5 don’t have a job, 4 don’t have a real job and 3 have jobs but looking for a job to make ends meet.

They might not tell it to your face but you can sense it from the desperate facial expression and voice tone. The 3 with the jobs actually have great remuneration but still, expenses are killing Malaysian families nowadays. Lots of graduates are being produced yearly but, without jobs to match their skills, what a waste. The Talent Corp is a waste of money because we have great human resources; it’s just we don’t create enough opportunities for them. And don’t get started on the financial crisis issue. A country with a financial crisis won’t be spending RM 5 billion lavishly on a building that have no importance and could only create 300 odd jobs.

Last week, when I went to the BBQ party in Port Dickson, the same issue arise again. We got this guy who had been training superbly and finishes with flying colors, comes out with no job. And for the recent post of trainee at the institute, only 10 out of 2000 applicants are hired. What’s the percentage? Only 5% were hired! And that’s to become a friggin trainee, not for a permanent post. So, what the 95% going to do? Re-apply to other place, get rejected and then, either they re-train, which is a complete waste of their spent time for their previous skill, or return to their parents. Thus, leading our workforce to have low experience and the only way to get better is through experience.

When you ask our leader, they say ‘oh, you have to improve your skills (which they already have), become an entrepreneur (which is friggin difficult due to governmental red tape, the only option is to open a stall), don’t be choosy la (how can you be choosy when there’s nothing to choose?). The best part is this, ‘we had offered 4,000 jobs at the recent job fair (I won’t say which one) and we are proud of this’. Numbers that attended the job fair? 400,000.

You might say I’m complaining without offering something concrete right? So, here’s some of my suggestion.

Reduce inflation. With reduced inflation, the people purchasing power parity will increase. Thus, leading to a better quality of life and people can enjoy their lives more and families will be happier.

The current method to increase wages will only lead to further inflation as there are more money circulating. In the end nobody wins and it will only devalue our currency. There’s no need to look good on financial papers saying that we have the highest GDP/ GDP per capita when that doesn’t reflect the actual situation.

Curb inflation by implementing ceiling price, forming unions that act upon traders who shoot up prices, increasing supply and make sure that it is not ok to increase price whenever oil price comes up.

Hence, by reducing inflation, people don’t have to look for a second job. People won’t have to be choosy. People will be braver to become entrepreneurs. I end this sad speech with Salam 1malaysia.

thescriptology

2011-04-05T01:17:00.001-07:00

New from The Script, If you ever come back.

-and if you're out there trying to move on,
but something pulls you back again,
I'm sitting here trying to persuade you,
like your in the same room-

-now they say that I'm wasting my time,
cause you never coming home,
But they used to say the world was flat,
but how wrong was that now-

been to james st where these guys lives and hang out. i still remember goin to lidl (cari mac n cheese dgn porn or capik kisas, time tu cam dgn jere belum ajaq mkn yogosan lagik), lalu pass the famed guinness brewery (tapi xpenah nk p tgk pun, usha kot luar je) n usually the main purpose of goin to james street was bcoz of goin to the big an post (post office in gaelic) to pick up undelivered packages. sounds cool eh? xde manenye, i swear to you ireland is sebijik macam kampung msia. the supposedly big an post tu mcm post office balik pulau je. aah, god i miss eire!
sape2 nk blanje aku g tgk dieorg kt spore or manila nex week, aku akan cinta org itu seumur idup.

story

2011-03-18T23:47:00.000-07:00

Story 1: Mendengar guruh di langit, air dlm tempayan dicurahkan.

the public library in shah alam, scheduled to move to a new building in front of the klab golf in january, n again re-scheduled to move in march, is closed. amidst all the scheduling, the new building is currently populated with southern asian workers.refer to the peribahasa.

Story 2: lai khee lai khee, pun see siang

with the enormous influx of housemen coming in, serdang hosp has invented a genius way of to ensure that the quality of their housemen suffering remain at its best.nw, they have reduce the number of oncall but instead, replaced it with extended working hours up to 9pm. so, nw, they dont have to pay for oncalls but still get the equivalent amount of manpower.refer to the hokkien peribahasa also.

still waiting confirmation frm zidan bout me job bt me bro said the food there's great.n stil waiting fr kkm lg. n suju is performin in msia 2nite.n really wan2 go to japan to help, but apprently they also not in a state to receive people.in a blink of an eye, 500k pepel become homeless. mmg kekuasaan ilahi, kun faya kun..

emo kid

2011-03-10T00:51:00.000-08:00

woke up at, wait, actually i hadn't slept et al, waiting for the Arsenal-Barca game. then, went to mmz at 3.30 n again the kedai was dissapointing so had to gerak to shazz instead. the game was phenomenal. i almost died of atrial fibrillation. my heart beat was racing and totally irregular and the guy in front of me could hear every beat of it. n every curse dat come out from me mouth.

curse barca.
curse yaya toure.
curse dani alves.+ 1 more curse.
curse leo messi for not playin 4 us.
curse capten cesc 4 being overawed by the occasion. if i was playin against penang, i wouldn't give a damn.
curse the ref 4 being a cunt. lets hope dat his son is a arsenal fan and later develop ptsd due to the game and later, goes amok and mutilate his own dad voice box so dat he couldn't be a ref anymore.
curse our defenders 4 bein so pedestrian. hack the ball in2 row Z pls.
curse barca fans 4 being soo pretentiously the holy team of football. mes que un club eh? xle terima kekalahan ckp ar.every year ur tapping up our best players n still u considered u guys r the thruthful ones? (overmars, petit, gio, henry, hleb, fab)
yest game made me loathe u guys even more. hala madrid!
curse xavi and iniesta.
curse bendtner. curse him again i think.
curse spurs 4 makin it thru.

on the bright side, the league is still there to be won.(forget the FA cup, we'll choke again)what could be done differently? well add more muscles in the middle of defence and the park. we're being outmuscled everytime they pressure the ball. and every time we get the ball or try to distribute it, they will out 3 people to won it back. dat y their possession is so high. retain, attack, regain, retain.

ez pz. japanizi.

like this page plz
http://www.facebook.com/pages/ANTI-BARCELONA/54505162364

cute song..cute vid..peace

2011-02-27T05:12:00.001-08:00

be responsible on what you are responsible of

2011-02-25T01:40:00.000-08:00

hadei, 3 days in a row of bad luck. would somebody make me a pot of roasted rabbit's foot soup and give me a four-clover leaf ring. maybe i'm not Irish enuff to get enuff luck. here's a story of keling karam malaysia (kkm).

keling 1:
went to the kakak (who yest told me just to isi the form and MAIL it back. n her peers said, he ALREADY DID that. yeke? hee, terkenyih. seb baik la ko comel) to submit my form. then, as usual she just said put it in the basket. then, i decided to ask sumthing more. ape? bole x speed upkn my form cuz my spa is gonna expired next month. so, it would be a major hassle to go through the interbiuwing process again. dia kate, ape? xperlu la. kita bkn proses sampai setaun, sebulan je. i said, no, u misunderstood. then, xpln again. baru dia kalut pi kt boss die. then, ckp, u silap isi form ni, u patut isi form lain, ni sapa yg suruh isi form nih? ....AKAK LA...ye ke, terkenyih...seb baik la ko comel..sejuk sikit ati aku yg nk panas ni. then, lari to her boss.

keling 2:
determined to rub salt in my wound n misdirect her staff uselessness, she went, haa, sapa suro berenti,,kan dah rugi,,awak xkn dapat sekian2,,n sekian2...like i care...ptt ke org mai mintak tlg, nk songket2 lak..mcm ni la, kata la kita tgh sakit kronik terdampar di hosp, who do you want to be on your side? a) org yg keep on blabbering, haaa, aku dah suro jgn isap rokok, minum arak, adakan hubungan rambang, berkongsi jarum, makan makanan berlemak, berketurunan asia atau caribbean atau african, dll.. or b) org yg keep on motivating and determined to bury the past thru redemption...u decide..then, die ckp oo ni kena g spa balik, schedule balik n isi balik form..while at the same time, never offer a single apology due to her staff incompetence that cost me a month. nvm, i never expect it anyway.

then, i end up in the right place, meet the people, who tell me the right thing to do and hope that everything will be allright. n turns out to be cuter by subjective perception than the initial kakak. idup ni macam roda kan?

4 the 1st time

2011-02-19T19:46:00.000-08:00

-for the first time, The Script-

i wanna hire the script to do my autobio.miss Dublin btw.

Old and Young

2011-02-17T18:28:00.000-08:00

What the oldies are thinking:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/17/nation/8083615&sec=nation

not my prob la. aku da nk pencen ni.stop bugging me. i'm gonna solve this as fast as i can then chow to Canada/HK/Australia with my brand new yacht.gotta keep my cv clean.care to have any long-term vison mate? doubt it.

What the youngsters are thinking:
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/2/3/focus/7918678&sec=focus
make sense? no? does this shows dat kite ni lembik? i 2nd this however. not because i dont want to suffer but becoz it actually does make sense. guess we have to do big protest Egypt-style to be heard eh? but no. mane ade masa. with ever-gripping fear of extension2.

like this la, docs are a very selfish lot. xtipu. bocz i still care that i took the road that not been taken. so, b4 this, most of the oldies are like the youngster. then, they naik pangkat. due to their selfish nature,( we'll they have to, otherwise they cannot climb up this high) they forgotten how it was before and couldnt care less bout the underlings as long as their wealth and status are guaranteed. sorry for the strong statement but sadly, its true. not pointing fingers to docs only cuz other profession pun like this.

so, to think liow tong lai would give a damn bout what that h.o wrote would be like waiting for a cat to grow horns and stop miowing nuisancely every nite. n the h.o would be like, wait till i'm the specialist/h.o.d/health minister i'm gonna change all this. but, corrupted by the system b4 he/she gets there, he/she forgets and innate nature kicks in which is selfishness. most doc/specialist would give you the similar story. wishing and waiting for the system to change since 30 years ago. y hasnt it changed? bcoz thy too jaga kain sendiri and would care bout others, as long as their wealth and status are guaranteed and preserved.

sad sad sad.oh my beloved country..n it all stems to our 3rd world mentality.

not all ya,some only.takut woo nk blog pelik2 la ni, nnt kena tangkap free2. but again, i have nothing, and nobody reads this friggin blog nwy, so, be my guest..

Nating

2011-02-17T18:12:00.000-08:00

-Nothing, The Script-
exactly my feelings, down to every words.

Arsenal cinta hatiku

2011-02-17T00:58:00.000-08:00

what a nite and what a day.we beat the best football team in the planet, Barcelona C.F! with the world's best player in their team Lionel Messi! ahahahahahaaa
let me smile as wide as i can por favor............smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hahahaha...in ur face those said we were gonna get thrashed
player ratings:
9- Szcnesny. super konfident, super spirited
7- Eboue. very semangat and hard working but intelligent wise...
10- Koscielny.my new hero. read most barca attack well indeed.
7- Djouru. good but could be better.
8- Clichy. Defending wise could be improved but a nice assist
6- Song. Stupid to get booked early. everybody knows you cant catch Messi. then, that lame attempt to go fwd leading for us to lose the ball. defending wise ok.
10- Wilshere. xcuak langsung, xavi ke, iniesta ke, busquets ke. really works his socks off
9- Capitano Cesc- control the midfield and shows Xavi that he's better.
6- Walcott. theartening early on but then dissapear. always track back thou.
10- Nasri. our player of the year. calm, collected, had lovely vision.
10- Robin van Hoodie. Bisa berbisa. left, right, header, ass? u name it, he'll score it.
7- Bendtner- came late to kacau the Barca back line'.
9- Arshaving- what a lovely technique.
10- Wenger. for sticking to our values. nevermind the critiques.

oh, and i almost cried when Arshaving scored.sumpah xbajet lgsg le menang.

vid of the day: breakeven- The script. every single lyrics describe me. njoy.

prebiew arsenal vs barcalona

2011-02-15T19:40:00.000-08:00

woo.dead excited bout 2nite game. sp*rs won at AC last nite, making us need to absolutely win this game to not lose face to them.
our probable line up:
(pardon my horrible drawing)

Barca probable line up:
(again, pardone)

shudn't be a problem rite? with our ever reliable back line and experienced goalkeeper, also not to mentioned midfield that never loses the ball and strike force dat thrashed opponents weekly, Barca will ketaq lutut to face us. Plus, Messi who?

aah, god. may my reverse psychology works. cant bear to see another thrashing. remember guys, Boringho had showed dat it takes 3 people to tame Messi. Clichy, Wilshere and Song better take note. nway, i don;t expect us to be chickens like Inter. kamon la for tonite!!!

Need to invest in a cup of Neslo ais and Barbican epal lagik mlm ni...

Malaysia vs Hong Kong semalam

2011-02-09T18:34:00.000-08:00

-yours truly at 0:37-0:40-

hehe, aah, what a brilliant nite..Malaysia win 2-0 against Hong Kong. The line up are as follows..

MALAYSIA: Khairul Fahmi Che Mat (Mohd Farizal Marlias), Mohd Asraruddin Putra Omar, Mohd Aidil Zafuan, Mahalli Jasuli (Mohd Sabre Mat Abu), Mohamad Fadhli Mohd Shas, Safiq Rahim, K. Gurusamy (G. Mahathevan), Mohamad Ashaari Samsudin (Mohd Amirulhadi Zainal), S. Kunanlan, Ahmad Fakhri Saarani (Noshahrul Idlan Talaha), Mohd Safee Mohd Sali (Shahrizal Mohd Saad).

HONG KONG: Yapp Hung Fai, Li Hang Wui, Deng Jinghua (Gerard Ambassa Guy), Wong Chin Hung, Chan Wai Ho, Lee Wai Lim, Lam Ka Wai, Lo Kwan Yee, Lo Chi Kwan (Chu Siu Kei), Liu Quankun, Lee Hong Lim, Ye Jia.

1st Half:
We went out playing attacking game with our usual 4-4-2 formation. The only changes are No.13 Ahmad Fakhri at right ST and No.7 Aidil Zafuan at right CD. We pressed them early and had 3 chances in the first 10 minutes, i think. I dont know why the boys are really fired up tonight, perhaps to stave off competitions for places in the team with so many players now knocking on the national team. insert Brendan Gan. Then, came our real chance in the 13th minute, a long range shot from our No.10 Safee Sali, if i'm mistaken (cuz i think Ahmad Fakhri made the shot but reports says otherwise), caught the HK goalkeeper unprepared as he could only parry it upwards and it hit the right post. We continues to dominate possession throughout and pressing is high, Barcelona-like. More action is on the right side of the field with our LW No.26, Mohamed Ashaari isolated and look a lost figure. The link between him and our LB, No.4 Asraruddin Putra was poor, causing the left side to be ineffective. Nevertheless, we kept posession and threatening with HK shape is now a narrow 4-5-1. The coach realizes this and shift Ashaari to the middle and immmediate improvement could be seen. perhaps Rajagopal was experimenting on his position and there's no harm in doing so in a friendly. Our next real chance came from our RW, No.16 Kunalan with a shot that just off the far post at the 34th minute. Nearing the end of the first half, the HK somehow switched off thinking about half time when our capitano, No.8. Safiq steal the ball, Norshahrul-like, and finish off after a nice shimmy. 1-0 to Malaysia.

2nd half:
HK decided not to sit back and change their formation to 4-3-3 or more like 4-2-3-1. It definetily changed the game but kudos to our backline and custodian, No.22, Khairul Fahmi didn't break a sweat at all.HK no.9 threathend a few times and attempt a pathetic dive at a corner flag once at 60th minute,but they rarely caused any real danger to our goal at all. Our midfield duo was superb in controlling the midfield with Safiq partnering No.15, Guru. Then, we made a couple of substitution towards the end with the introduction of No.9 Norshahrul causing panic to the HK backline with his pace. In the end, probably, Hk already thinking about their return flight again switch off and a nice cross to Amirul Hadi give him our second goal at 90th minute. Malaysia 2-HK 0.

Pros:
4-4-2. I thought Rajagopal was going to tinker with our tactic and line-up. So, im surprised to see a similar team to our cup winning team. but this proved that 4-4-2 suits us best.
Safiq. He alone controlled the game and Hk was stupid no put some one to man mark him. Given all the freedom, Safiq really dictates the game and Malaysia's gameplan.
Work rate. Superb. All players work hard to regain possession whenever its lost. we never give HK any time to settle down.
Have fun. Its nice to see our players still having fun on the pitch and not be strict disciplinarians like North Korea. That's what football is all about. An ole from Ashaari, nice back flick from Safee, silky skill from Ahmad Fakhri and Norshahrul. baru best main bola macam ni.

Cons:
Technique. looks like we are still lacking in terms of this but the future's bright for these guys and they'll improve no doubt.
Creativity. Again, we are not Brazil bt seems like we really stick to our gameplan last nite. If that doesn't work i'm not sure we have a plan B or player who can unlock the game creatively. but, i might be proven wrong later.

In conclusion, a really great way to progress forward. i only expected a draw yesterday. we were like on the same level with Hk a few years ago but now, we made them look like schoolboys. I'm not expecting the players to challenge England or Brazil immediately. we have to be realistic. I think the 2015 Asia Cup qualification is a realistic target. Lets keep supporting the players no matter what.

In terms of strength in the AFC, i think here where we are:

Rank A: Japan, Australia, South Korea, Iran. could beat any European team but not traditional superpowers.
Rank B: Most gulf countries (Saudi, Kuwait, UAE etc) Uzbekistan, Iraq, China, North Korea
Rank C: Lesser gulf countries (Oman,etc), Thailand, Indonesia, Hong Kong
Rank D: Others in AFC but still decent eg; Vietnam, Singapore, India
Rank E: Really weak teams like Bhutan, Timor Leste

I think we are gearing towards rank B at a right pace. now, we should have more friendlies away from home to improve our away form. at home, we are good.

cerita-ceriti

2011-02-07T18:07:00.000-08:00

well, been cramming in the lib 4 the ielts and feel like really wanna scream in the lib. really boring stuff. but as this person exp, o.5 does make a difference so i better watch out.

So, read is what i did n i came across a book dat i had read in my primary school and had been looking 4 it since. Its called Siri Cerita 25 Nabi and i doubt whether i'll come across it at any book store again since it was published in 1987. what great about this book is dat it is easily to read and gaya penceritan dia pun menarik, xboring. and the family connection is always mentioned so you know who's related to who. So, for those who are in despair and in need, i'm gonna quote two stories from the book.

1. Kisah Nabi Yusuf A.S

Thrown into jail due to Zulaikha lies, Nabi Yusuf a.s couldn't anymore happier to escape from the worldly temptations and that Allah had granted his wish to be jailed. There, he preached to the inmates about Allah and that only He deserved to be worshiped. There he met this two guy Saqi and Khilaz, who came to know about his ability to interpret and predict dreams. Having told him their dream, Nabi Yusuf a.s predict that Saqi will be reappointed into the palace staff again within the next three days while Khilaz will be executed, also within the next three days. His prediction came true by Allah's will and while Saqi was leaving the cell, Nabi Yusuf a.s mentioned to him, "don't forget to tell the Egyptian ruler about my ability and that i had intepreted and predicted your dream and that i was wrongly prisoned." Saqi said that he will. So, Nabi Yusuf a.s waited, and waited....for seven years long. seem that Saqi had forgotten about his message.

Then, malaikat Jibril pun came to the jail and asked to Nabi Yusuf a.s, Siapa yang menjadikanmu?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang menjadikan wajahmu cantik?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang mengeluarkanmu dari perigi?."Tuhanku".Siapa yang menyelamatkanmu dari bencana Zulaikha dan Siapa yang menjadikan kanak-kanak itu sebagai saksi?."Tuhanku, Tuhanku".
Jika begitu, kenapa kamu minta tolong kepada makhluk lain, bukan Allah?. Sambung Jibril lagi, moyangmu Ibrahim, sewaktu dicampakkan ke dalam api meminta pertolongan dari Allah. Mendengar kata-kata itu, Nabi Yusuf a.s pengsan. Sesudah pengsan,beliau bangun lalu menangis sehingga 7 hari, ada riwayat yang menagatakan hingga 10 hari.

2. Kisah Nabi Ayub a.s

Long story cut short, this is after his children had been killed by Allah's will and after he had contracted the skin disease which caused worms to nest in it, also by Allah's will after satan had asked for it. His wife asked, when will our suffering ends? we had suffer long enough. (3-4 years if i'm not mistaken). Nabi Ayub a.s answered, "Allah had given us plenty of rezeki for 60 years and now He'd only took back what is His for only 3 years. what right do we have to complain?" and then his wife asked for Nabi Ayub a.s to ask Allah to alleviate their suffering but Nabi Ayub replied, sesungguhnya aku malu hendak meminta dengan Allah kerana Dia hanya mengambil balik hakNya. then. we all knw what happen next. and he never ever ask Allah to ease his suffering at all.

So, adik-adik, point to ponder,

baru kena ujian 3-4 bulan dah komplen, Allah bagi nikmat 25 tahun xmintak balasan pape pun, pernah kita bersyukur kat setiap apa yang Allah beri? the air we breath, the ability for our lungs to expand, the cleanliness of the air we breath, the creation of nostrils, mouth, throat as the passage for the air...i can rant forever and it wont still be enuff..

dok mintak tolong kat orang sini sana tapi forget to mintak kat Allah. apa kuasa sgt orang2 ni ada? lemah sgt. makin lama makin putus asa tapi nabi Yususf dan Nabi Ayub tu mintak doa sampai 7 tahun xpernah putus. Ni xdpt sikit nk frust dah. memalukan. n Saidina Ali bin Abi Talib r.a pernah pesan jangan terjebak ke lembah kefakiran kerana dengannya datang kehinaan and fakir itu membuat jiwa dan iman menjadi lemah. selalulah bersadaqah kerana sadaqah itu berterusan dan pulangannya lebih. jauhilah penyakit Al-wahan, yakni cintakan dunia.

n the stunning discovery that i found is dat the world never changes. dari dulu sampai sekrg camtu je. this gen kena bala, then insaf, then lupa, then wat balik, then kena bala balik.dari zaman Nabi Adam a.s lagi.

of kos, i'm talking bout myself and anyone who come across this bole la wat ikitbar. peace.

new country lagi.

2011-02-07T17:03:00.000-08:00

In the next 5 months, there will be a new independent country presumably, named Southern Sudan. Now, congratulations to them and may they live in peace after this. Now, for the history of the conflict that lead to the separation of the country can be found here.

Now, what I strongly feel as a sense of injustice here is that, as long as i can remember, these are the countries that had formed in my lifetime; Kazakhstan, Uzbekistan, Turkmenistan, Tajikistan, Kyrgyzstan, Georgia, Armenia, Azerbaijan (Former Soviet in Asia) in the early 90s, Ukraine, Moldova, Lithuania, Latvia, Estonia, Belarus (Former Soviet in Europe) in the early 90s as well, Slovakia ( separated from the former Czechoslovakia) in the 94/95 in think?, Croatia, Slovenia, Macedonia, Bosnia- Herzegovina in the mid 90s, Serbia, Montenegro, Kosovo just recently. Closer to home we got East Timor in the mid 2000s. This is all i can remember, shucks, i cant remember Vietnam unification.

Now, the formation of South Sudan is similar to East Timor. Civil War between Christians and Muslims and then, come international intervention, and the Christians side was separated, given independence and hailed as the victor. Now, where the international intervention for southern Thailand, Xinjiang, Tibet, Kashmir, Palestine, Dagestan, to name a few..as if the intervention will come to places that bears importance to the benefactor.call me naive but this is injustice. hiding behind the mask of democracy.

Books does lie

2011-01-31T17:36:00.000-08:00

in case u havent know it, the biggest story in football today is the transfer of Fernando Torres from Liverpool to Chelsea for 50 mil pounds. While it is not met with much enthusiasm by Liverpool fans, his decision is completely understandable...from a football perspective that is..i mean, a move to a football club that is constantly challenging for the EPL and the UCL, also with a bigger remuneration package. He won everything at international football and now it's time for club honors.

It's a similar case when he left Atleti. Goin to a bigger club, gunning for trophies. Then, Rafa left, n i guess he doesn't see that the club is goin forward anymore, with the boardroom turmoil and all. Best of luck at Chelsea then n probably he'll have to wait till next year cuz Arsenal is gonna win the League and FA cup, Man U is gonna win the league and Barcelona is gonna win the UCL. I really think he should go to Barca though, if he really wanna move. Sadly, Barca already had Villa, and goin to Real would be the greatest sin he'll ever commit in his life.

Now, I'm an Arsenal but i really have a great affection for Torres. Not only he's a superb footballer with his darting runs, silky moves, and precise finishing, but also as a person. He's not the Cristiano type who cannot live with out a camera focusing at him. He's just, like,... one of us, i could say. This had led be to buy his book, and I never buy a footballer autobiography before. just read from kududan or wiki. So, his story is really intriguing and really been an inspiration to me on how to adapt. and the theme of the book is constantly, loyalty, loyalty, loyalty..to Atleti, to Liverpool.. that what makes me respect him so much...he talks about his desire to be a one-man team like Raul, Maldini, Totti..and how's Liverpool fans is the greatest in the world (this point is sumtin I agree with, its really like a graveyard at the Emirates).

well, guess what mate? you just betrayed the greates fans in the world. can u imagine pledging your loyalty to sumbody for years and then, left them, when they not achiving..that's hypocrisy! not loyalty. you know why people like Raul and Totti gain so much respect in the footballing world? They stick with their team through thick and thin. Raul's been there when the club at it's greastest and lowest and so did Totti. u think how many times Totti contemplated with the idea of goin to Milan or Juve to win the UCL? but hell no, he has his dignity and pride. His skin would burn if he was ever to wear another team shirt. What happen to worms who betrayed their club to seek glory? i can give u 3 different example:

1) Michael Owen. go to biggest club in the world and had been on a downward spiral ever since. read his auto also ahaha.

2) Monkey Cole. yeah, he wins trophies and stuff but as a human, he lost his value. Nobody likes him at all and he's gonna die a sad man cuz he also betrayed his wife afterwards.

3) Luis Figo. Despised by both sets of barca, madrid tried to embrace him, but they love zinade more.

u see, medals do matter, but the value of the medal is more important..Djimi Traore had a UCL medal but do people remember him? heck, no! u gonna look at ur medal when ur old and say, this is how i won this and this. so, if u won it in an honorable way, ull be proud to tell ur story every single time. if not, u r goin 2 b so ashamed of ur self dat the medal is goin to the attic or e-bay.

for now, i'm soo done with autobiographies..i'm gonna read them when they retire..n see what bipolar-alcoholic-cirrhotic developed Monkey Cole would write then.

bijak bijak bijak sifir

2011-01-08T17:41:00.000-08:00

saw a tweet by a kmb jr bout math Ib n i must say dat i had a really wonderful exp wit it. well, b4 goin to mrsm, i was effortlessly doin math but still excelling it. dunno y, but everyhing seems really easy to grasp during dat time. then, came mrsm, n i actually failed my 1st add math test. actually its the 1st time i failed in any paper in my whole life!

so, it eventually turned out 2 b dat i will flunk math during these two mrsm years. but, i really surprised myself during this one time. me, ikram and piee, the beserian add math god, like, super god, always 90%++, were preping. then, they were discussing dis one prob 4 like, 30 minutes. i was just too bored to get involved n was doodling instead. then, fed up dat depa lama sgt bincang, i was like, mana, meh nk try. then, scrib scrib scrib, tadaa. they was like, whoo, betul sial! n i was like, whoo, aku le jwb soalan piee xle wat sial! ada bakat gk aku nih..hahaha

but, add math already did its damage thus leadin me to take med, under the false pretense dat i shall not encounter any more math after dis. masuk2 banting...barua, asal ada maths lagik!!! so, lets just say dat i really dont get maths Ib at all..n the more dahsyat thing was my classmates were all cekap2, n i mean all of them!! ada la kot syafiq sorg dgn aku yg xtau pape. so, my result was like dis, 5, then 4, then 3..ahaha..which led me to be placed in the kelas pemutihan..ahaha..mmg lawak gila la.

so, i was like to go n c pn.khuzaimi every week on a monday, if i'm not mistaken. but, i never did. mmg as fate had meant it 2 b, every monday mesti ada benda berlaku. demam, ada kena panngl dgn pengetua then apa2 lagi..sampai sbln++..but pn.khuzaimi never asked n never made a fuss about it. feelin guilty, i decided to write a letter to her..mmg detailed la letter 2..ada kronology of wut happen lg..ahaha..then, she replied my letter sayin its ok as long as im studying on my own.

so, terjadi la satu event yg mmg aku xkn lupakn ni..satu hari, kelas kol 800 kot dimana sume mmg tgh blur n ngantuk, pn.khuzaimi asked, ok, now who wants to explain to me about the vector? usually because of the smartness and semangatness of my class, there will be one or two hands raised. tapi, takdak, xtau la depa ngantuk or mmg xtahu..then, how bout u kamal? i dunno how or why, just put it fate, dat i did read about it the last nite before. n i never ever read/do exercise/discuss math during the nite. just melalak kt bilik membe or my room or common room or bilik tv. mmg xtahu mcm mana i picked up my note book dat nite. then , i explained la tara, tara, tara...satu kelas ternganga....ahahhaha...pn.khuzaimi pun tersnyum puas ati. afterwards those guys were like, weh, camne ko le power nih? hahah..n dats was my proudest math ib moment. before the inevitable final doom..it the first paper dat i was to scribe anything, nk hentam pun xde idea! punya blank. halfway, i put my head on the table and saw erickuey was looking at me as well wit the blank look..sigh..n 4 the next 30 minutes i had already planned to open a charkueyteow stall if i didn't make it. or take up perikanan or persuratan at uitm..hahahaha

how i managed to get a 6?i had the african Ib students to thank.

-wish math was this easy-

yet another stupidity by the mmc

2011-01-04T23:41:00.001-08:00

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2011&dt=0105&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Kampus&pg=ka_02.htm

dunno wut will happen to these guyz..kesian sgt

up!

2010-12-29T20:49:00.001-08:00

funny scene..gabblegabblegabble..

muvi..my nama is khan x tgk lg walaupun dah donlod lama dah

2010-12-24T01:44:00.000-08:00

since im stuck in the cc cuz of the rain n my com at home had broken down (mcm2 da aku try, bukak kipas cuci dgn amyrah, start 100x, boot sume drive)n everybody is ranking their fav muvi in 2010, ill guess i shud do the same.cuz i watch a lot of muvi dis yer..
hp7, narnia, rapuzel, social network, takers, salt,inception, sorcerer apperentice, toy story 3, prince of persia, robin hood, iron man 2, how to train your dragon, percy jackson, zoo, adnan sempit,

patut la kaya wayang msia, org mcm aku yg xsuka tgk wayang pun tgk sebyk ni dlm setaun, org len lagi la. ada yg tgk rapunzel sampai 2 x tau..

but my top 3 would be:

i) Inception. Really fresh muvi dat break from the hollywood stereotype and made you to think until your brain cell about to burst. best. pelakon power.
ii) Toy Story 3. Mak oii, syahdunya tgk muvi ni..tigt zaman kanak2.
iii) The Social Network. ni lagi la. baru tau camne perangai org2 yg kaya dan power ni. seram aku dgn facebook.

wan2 binge on ice cream bt need 2 watch my weight! hari tu jenuh aku hisap perut time intebiu. huhu..mlm ni nk jogging. if the weather permits.

-ni la explanation inception tu-

wassup?

2010-12-22T22:43:00.000-08:00

well done to my bro cz gettin a raise yest. he really deserve it after all he'd been thru. he's really an inspiration to me. just shove every critique and do thing his own way. ohoho, he's life story lg dasat fr mine. so ya know what? i think this whole period is really a blessing in disguise. insert wide grin.

got tickets for dis sunday. kaunter tu ckp, bukak2 je org dah line up pjg. grandstand abes trus. got an extra, but xsure 4 whom yet. both my bro tanak n jereidolakami pn xle. y am in so determined to see this match? it goes all the way back to 2006, during the world cup in germany. A German TV came n interview me and ask about how's german and the environment. and then the killer question, who do come to support? South Korea. . . .. .bcoz they are the best asian team. Tv crew smiles and chow.

then, after the match n swiss people kept hugging me for thinking i'm south korean, again i was asked on the train back. where ya from? malaysia. who do you support? south korea. y???? bcoz they are the best asian team. *the guy makes a pathetic face*

sad kan?
how i wish malaysia was there so i can be proud of us. so, i made a pledge to always support our team no matter how bad they are, ranking no 200 ke, bcoz they are the team dat we should be proud of. so, kamon msia 4 dis weekend.

4 now, lets fly..

sabishii

2010-12-21T18:07:00.000-08:00

sedihnye..ai, nk wat camne..there's a saying that sounded quite like this, love without energy is futile. i guess dats true. n im really in the midst of getting interviews.just now got one more. tu la, patience is a virtue...guess good things come to those who wait eh? huhu..Alhamdulillah kerana aku masih mendapat nikmat Islam Ya Allah. Biarlah pengakhiranku di dalam Iman dan Islam Ya Allah. Hanya kepadaMu tempatku bergantung dan memohon pertolongan.

Never, Never, ever give up, Never, Never- R.Bolles

sumbody is gettin high

2010-12-19T18:56:00.000-08:00

new from gD and t.O.p

The sad story of Francis Jeffers

2010-12-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

Tahniah to pasukan Malaysia diatas kemenangan terhadap Vietnam 2-0. sungguhpun, tactically and technically, kite masih ketinggalan, tapi team spirit dan hardwork carries the team through in the end. Imppressive player last nite were, ever-consistent keeper fahmi, both center back muslim and fadhli shas, wingers aminulrashid and kunalan,fox in the box safee sali..i'm expecting a defensive formation in Hanoi with 4-2-3-1 or 4-5-1.nvm defensive, what matters in the end is results, not pretty football like Arsenal.hard to see regular players like Zaquan and Aidil winning their place back if the players' form continue like this.anyway, we still need to win the war, the AFF trophy, yg xpenah dijulang semenjak aku dilahirkan lagi. kamon2, u guys owe it to urselves and the Malaysian pepel.

Speaking of a certain fox-in-the-box, anyone still remembers the name Francis Jeffers? touted as the next England striker, its amazing that he managed to spur every opportunity to screw himself in the end.When he came to Arsenal with another future england player Richard Wright, i was like, he must be real good cuz we were spending loads of money on this chap.turned out 2 b, he got the nick diving swan if i could recall. then, the latest i read he's playing in the A-league after failing trials at Blackpool and Everton, after getting dismissed in his last match for Shef Wednesday and fined heavily by the club(aah, Shef Wednesday, reminds me of Nicklas Alexandersson, what happen to him ar?)

Turns out the next big thing to come out from the blue half of Merseyside is Wayne "skyrocketeer-penalty" Rooney.adei, nvm, he's not French enuff to play for us. u knw who Arsenal shud buy? Aguero-kun. Still at Atleti, he sure would jump at the chance to play at a big club. and he's got like cesc to keep him company. Cavani is also is doing really well at Napoli, post-wc2010.or Alex Pato, who's not been playing enuff at Milan. droll.....

so, our 4-3-3 would be like this..wait, we need another DM after Alex Song cheated us into thinking that he had promise to become world class.hmm, how bout, Matuidi? french, long legs, not famous yet, mcm Vieira illegal offspring..or we poke Essien in the eye, causing him temporary blindness, take him out in the tube to Emirates to sign a contract with us, later, send him back home till his vision recovers..he wouldn't have a clue..the next morning he goes to training, he'll be like, what? since when Arshaving joined Chelsea? no mate, it's the opposite.droll..........

so, our 4-3-3 would be like this..*HG indicates homegrown

GK- Fully developed Szcznesny (HG)
RB- Abu Bakar Sagna
LB- Tulang Besi, Urat Dawai Gibbs (HG)
CD- Verminator II
CD- omg, i forgot to buy his partner!Djoururawat can fill in temporarily (HG)
DMC- Essien..i'm dreaming rite? wait, put Wilshere here (HG)
RCM- Cesc Fabregas (c) (HG)
LCM- Aaron Ramsey Hell's Kitchen (HG)
RW- Theo Walcott (HG)
FC- Maroune Chamackh,son of the great Merzagua Abderrazak
LW- Aguero-kun/ Pato-kun

ha, we got 7 HG players.cantik.subs ada Fabiansku, Cliche, The Incredible Eboue, Costlyelny, tipu Song, Denilson-never-pass-forward, Nasri Abd Kahar, Rosicky, RvP, Arshaving.

droll.....

mari memasak

2010-12-08T02:16:00.000-08:00

hi, since the house is all mine now, i had been cooking non-stop till but i didn't cook rice even once..it's not like i hate rice but i'm too lazy to wash the rice pot afterwards..any of you who had washed an after-cooked rice pot will know..tedious job..

so, where did iron chef kamal get his inspiration from..no other great place to get an inspiration except for, Man VS Food..muahahahaha

So, in effort to boost my gf lousy cooking skill, i decided to put up a few pics of my cooking. tada!

Chilli con carne..sort of..

Choc cake ala mode

Steak sandwich....ni bkn aku masak..ahaha..ni equitorial wat..tp xsdp..steak keras

Ni next contestant man vs food..perut tong..time kt sunway galoon..

kpop fever

2010-12-08T01:08:00.000-08:00

After watching the arrivals, i'm convinced that the western entertaiment media has been controlled by the people who are brain washing the world. So, what other alternatives do i have? aha, K-Pop!!! hehee..n what the hottest stuff in k-pop rite now? 2ne1!!! So, now its 21 hours of 2ne1, which just left me of 3 hours to sleep..boo..n if there's still masonic elements in k-pop n i dunno what to say..tune in to arabic concert? gelimat woo tgk pompuan arab rambut megerebang, badan besaq nyanyi lagu yang bunyi macam tgh memuji Allah tapi at the same time die dok dedah sini ataupun sana..

check out my fav vid of the year..
the live performance is brilliant as well..one of a kind

Go Away- 2NE1

p/s; at least aku xnanges mcm org 2 mlm2 dok tgk cite korea..;)

Bapak sudah mau pulang, dong..

2010-12-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

"Bang!" the guard salutes me as i walk through the gates, coming back from 7E. its usual that we greet each other with the salutation "bang" and grin widely but never a salute. What's up? i wondered..

"Saya 22hb ni dah nk balik." It hit me in the head like someone just threw a rock there. So fast? Is it really been this long?

Then, he tell me about how his 3 year old son always speaks to him on the phone but doesn't recognize his face and how much he misses him. n about his plan to open a grocery store upon his return. He's from Medan. then, we apologize for any wrongdoings and wish each other luck and shake hand. He has a hand of a hardworking man, big, rough and sweaty.

yeah, i really get along with people, pangkat doesn't mean a thing to me, bcoz eventually we all goin to end up dlm lubang kubur. even when i was a doctor, i always respect and tegur all the makcik sapu and pak gad. at least, they are more sincere than the doctors.

but, this post is about how fast time flies n i'm still stuck at this spot. I mean, he's told me the plan before and suddenly, it is materializing. it is really kinda wake up call for me. i know that interviews are hard to get nowadays but one?

so, i need to get my income automation fast, then, settle things up with the kuda kayu malaysia (kementerian kesihatan malaysia). but ,if i become a h.o here, i'm never going to take the AMC. So, till the end of this month, if i get a job, then, planning for AMC and Oz is still on. but, if not, then, it's h.o in malaysia and i'm stuck in the rat race, chasing my own tail to the graveyard.

Stories bout mah skool

2010-11-21T19:52:00.000-08:00

http://peraktoday.com/wp/?p=992
http://margeemar.blogspot.com/2010/06/kesakitan-penang-medical-college.html
http://margeemar.blogspot.com/2010/03/help-penang-medical-college.html
http://margeemar.blogspot.com/2010/05/another-perspective-on-penang-medical.html

i shall not say whether this true or not cuz some of the bits quite surprised me. n i like goin to sj and taiping. different person, different perspective ya know?

but 4 nw, im goin to have to fork out 13,000 2 go to oz or canada. cuz chances of you goin to get employed in eire is as high as 0.5%.wanna work in malaysia? be my guest.
you can learn loads here, no bull.

The 4 D

2010-11-14T19:06:00.001-08:00

very interesting read.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fourth_dimension

Lost and found

2010-11-06T19:01:00.000-07:00

i went to see a play last sat with the above title. it's a story bout whats lost in life. its good, no bull, but i really haven't got the found part. whether it's not there or my right side brain is unsynapsing, i dunno. the part where it made me think the most was, this;

Mr A (i forgot the name) works for the gov, later got sent to sabah for 2 years and leaving his family behind. then, wanting to be with his family, he quits his gov post, and decided to work in the private sector. then, as his career grows, he have to work around the clock to make ends meet. again, he become more disconnected with his son. until, he was like, 40 or 50, he decided to start his own business to have more free time with his family. but, his business went bust and he made several attempt to start a couple of business but all were unsuccessful. now, in his retirement age, he had no pension, all his saving are spent towards his business, and his son doesn't love him claiming he was never there for him.

the story is more or less goes like that.

so, point to ponder..
i) all that he's been doing is for his family. but, why the ending has to be like that?
ii) feel any eerie similarity? i work like hell plus OT some more but my children don't know me? like the old people saying, money can't buy hapiness, aint it?
iii) but, if i don't work, who's gonna foot the bills? food?
iv)does the son is right in doing so? i mean, yeah, he's deprived of love but then, the father is the one providing food, clothes, shelter to him until he grows up.
v) u know what. i bet that this is everybody's dilemma. but, here's a story, i have a friend, live in the kaya part of ampang with a huge comfortable house but seldom sees his pa bcoz the pa always works overseas. but he still loves his pa, though sometimes he do feel sad bout it, but hey, he UNDERSTANDS....i think, its the understanding part that make the difference..

some people just can't understand. but, they are not wrong as well. i mean, when grow up, which kinda memory stick to u and made u feel warm? ur father taking u to the playround or seeing a huge 40 inch LCD TV in da houz? again, from personal exp, i can tell that it's the former. having lost my father since i was a kid, i always remember these stuff about my father:
i) his smell
ii) his smile
iii) his dance to the Hindustan tune
iv) the day he present me my prize during my tadika sports day
v) the day he came to pick up at school one day. i take the bus everyday.
vi) every evening he always take me in our proton jalan2 n he always stop at this one shop, give me seringgit, and told me buy any drinks i want. i never forgot the blue schweppes i bought.
vii) the sound of your father car coming home. (ahahaa, sorry mr.kevin, i stole ur line)

now, how many millions did my dad spent? to have his smell. to have his smile. to dance to the hindustan tune.

that's why u can see anak orang susah2 lebih cherish their parents more compare to anak2 orang kaya. not all, but mostly.so parents, do not fall into the false pretense that giving=loving.

god, i miss my dad so freaking much.

other story in the play is a son losing touch with his father even though he take care of his father everyday but he's father loves his grandchild more. i think the message here is, while indeed your father or mother need care in their later years, it is the love and attention that they need more.

que my mom....taradaatatttata..now, the tone of nag has changed to why don't you more time to spent with me..adoi...like the old people saying, diluah mati mak, ditelan mati bapak.ahaha..

its been a while since i had seen a play. great story, although some parts feels a bit rushed. great acting, some showed their inexperincedity (is this a valid word? haha) but hey, effort wise, top class. the delivery techniques is fresh and engaging to the audience as well. shows that u dont need fancy pancy props to come out with a great show.

byk gile aku tulis arinih..ada bakat jadi writer x? huhu..k, chow lu.

gud day

2010-11-04T19:17:00.001-07:00

What an amazing morning. almost all the traffic lights to day lit green whenever i approached them ( usually all of them will be bloody red, 1 after 1, for like, a freaking hour!) n then i get to eat one of the best roti canai in the world while browsing around. at padang jawa.

an interesting stuff happened is dat initially, i saw this guy in red shirt and jean shorts in the middle of the road. i was like, what the heck man? roadkill? then, i tersesat masuk ke kpg pdg jawa n had to make a u turn. then, he was there again. instead, he was trying to get a ride! aha, poor him. sebab he looks bigger and stronger than me so i didn't dare to give a ride. sat g die taboh aku mampoih then ambek moto aku.

so, die g mkn kt kedai roti canai tu n after dat, still trying to hitchhike on anything his can get his paws on. moto ka, kete ka, lori sampah ka..mcm2 taktik lak tu. senyum la, wat best sign la, suro stop2 la..last2 aku rasa dia dapat lori sampah tu kot.

so, i think the reason he failed to get a proper ride is:
1) it's bloody rush hour even though it's a public holiday
2) he's on a busy road. his chances will be better if he's at a more secluded road. orang akan leibh kasihan.
3) he appears to be hostile. yeah, i know, how else should a homeless person should appear like rite? but, nampak mcm penjenayah. kalau wat muka alim2 kucing, at least your chances will be better.

k, jya

the promised poem

2010-11-03T02:11:00.000-07:00

this is the poem dat i written before.xda title pun. ahahah..any suggetsion?? comments and critics are welcomed, njoy..

Its been a while since Death visited the family,
should it be welcomed or not?
some waited for it, some didn't.

Some of The Waiters are waiting the ending of a journey,
some of the waiters are waiting to reap the rewards from The Waiters,
The Doesn't Waiters, prepared or not, are in for a surprise,
because willing or not, it's sure to come.

It's been a while since Death visited the family,
The Doesn't Waiters has outnumbered The Waiters,
The Waiters tries to make The Doesn't Waiters become like themselves,
but The Doesn't Waiters still had a lot to accomplished before he can waits.
do The Waiters need to change The Doesn't Waiters?
since they themselves doesn't wait before they become The Waiters.
or maybe The Waiters are seeking companionship in their waiting,
gripping fear of being alone at the end.

It's been a while since Death visited the family,
the last time it did, everybody are tearful,
maybe for The Waiters, it's the tear of sadness or joy, respectively of their waiting,
maybe for The Doesn't Waiters, it's the tear of shock or nothingness,
that being obtuse, they forget Death too will visit them,
taking them to the end,
that The Waiters are waiting for.

Kamal Ishak, April 2010

lawak of the day

2010-11-03T00:42:00.001-07:00

Pagi tadi aku tgh minum teh o panas kat maple ni. pastuh, tgh baca paper, then ada sorg laki ni panggil ane suro kira.pastu ane tu dtg la.

Pastu laki tu ckp, "milo WOo, satu. teh WOo, satu. teh WOo, satu."

ahaahah, aku dok sebelah tu dok tahan gelak dah. xguna tul dok buli ane tu.
adei, ni tgh dok taip ni pun dok gelak lg. ahaha.

aaaa

2010-10-30T18:41:00.000-07:00

dulu aku power html nih, dah tua2 xreti dah..can anyon else hear the song that supposed to play automatically?

test

2010-10-30T18:24:00.003-07:00

test lagi dan lagi

test

2010-10-30T18:24:00.001-07:00

test test test

oyw.

2010-10-28T19:30:00.000-07:00

since the blog had been too depressing a bit lately,i decided to light things up. by blogging bout sumthing else? what ar?

haa, do you know dat i'm a big big bang fan boy? ahaha..memalukan rite? tp layan gle so, aku xkesah..kalau ada wat show kt msia pun aku sanggup gi tgk..

mula2 aku tdgr kt mtv, ni lagu hape ni, lyn gle..nk aku list kn ke lagu2 pe yg best?> aa aku wat playlist youtube ar>

Haru Haru (day by day)

Lies

Koe wo kikasete

Beautiful Hangover

Last farewell

5 ni plg aku lyn ar..
nk kurus, pastu nk jd balak mcm T.O.P. haha

pastu yg lg dasat ade dokumentari camne dieorg form band ni..dasat gle..rupenye ade style akademi mcm bola tu,amek dari umo kecik2 lg dah train dah..n siap suro blaja jepun lg..

ada 10 episode..mmg mengharukan gk aa..bkn mudah nk jadi pop star ni kan..
ok, chow dulu..

every day a new adventure

2010-10-24T21:35:00.000-07:00

wow.how i love my life..kalau wat buku ni laris ni..mcm muvi pursuit of happyness tu..nvm, i can't get any bottom than this. the only way is up! still got a couple of bucks to survive this coming weeks..

wut else? gearing up 4 the next crucial 2 weeks..aa, i got my reset button already, if there's a delete button it would be nicer..haha..neway, thanks my bro 4 bringing me to loa talk n met micheal losier. definitely helps..i owe u 4 life man..

now to think bout it, dulu both of my bro got this period in their life.. and at exactly the same age! if i'm not mistaken..so, i take it as a dugaan la, light is definitely at the end of tunnel, the only thing that we dont know is whether it's the ipoh tunnel, smart tunnel or the swiss alps tunnel..

n thanks boyata and arsenal 4 making my day.

the real blessing in this dugaan is dat it make me sit and take a step back and look at life. bout the shortness of it. bout the purpose of it. bout our eventual ending.
well, people are busy chasing wealth to ensure "happyness" but does the process doesn't matter?

n it make refect my time at oversea. i don't have much but it's enuff and i feel great, no, estatic everyday.so, i think the answer to this is u don't need much but enuff. enuff is up to what ur desires are. e.g, if you are happy with a car, then, u should have a car to be enough.

now, next issue, it is NEVER enough in Malaysia. y? are the people too engrossed in material wealth? are the expenses are too expensive? i think it's greed. here's a story, say, abu, a simpleton living in a kampung house lead a simple abu life of waking up, go to the kebun, petang;lepak at kedai kopi, maghrib; go to the surau and sleep and repeat.he's feels great currently cuz he has everything and its ENUFF.

Now, bring abu to KL, suddenly, abu needs to have a day job+ OT + part time job business to cope. how does he feel? of course unhappy cuz he doesn't have enuff.
so, is it circumsatnces or personal greed dat determine wut is enuff? eg, do i NEED a dahsyat car to make travelling easier and impress my socialites or do i LOVE to have a dahsyat car to make travelling easier and impress my socialites.

if you look at maslow theory, the bottom of the pyramid, it's food, shelter and self-regulatory physiological needs. (haha,aku xpenah blaja business pun tau menatang ni)but, are these enuff? to create happyness?

views are appreciated. i'm just a thinker like you.

n hepi birtday to my beloved gf..when someone is willing to go through the thick and thin with you, then you know that you want to spend the rest of your life with her.

hidup sebelum mati..

2010-10-08T10:03:00.000-07:00

Al-fatihah..pagi ni aku dikejutkan dengan berita kematian..cik jun telah pulang ke rahmatullah..terkejut..sebab xsangka langsung..mak lagi la..nangis lagi..they had been friends like, for tens of years..n she says like, all of her friends had gone now. tinggal dia sorg je..i'd written a poem while i was in med school bout the malay death scenario.. ade dlm buku kt hospital, nnt i write it down..

just the past 2 days, i read a line from saidina Ali ibn Abi Talib bout how death is the real beginning of life..n he's definitely rite..all this while kite sibuk sgt kejar dunia but we forgot that our main goal is the hereafter..dunia ni fana je.. sat je..tup tap tup tap abes..see, i seem like only yesterday i went to send kuih to her house, now she's gone..n now, cepat je aku dah jadi tua..n looking back mmg most of the time is wasted..on what? lagha stuff..tv, game, tido..i'm sure gonna regret this in my grave if this keep going on..

every death is a lesson..jgn cintakan sgt dunia ni..xkn bole bawak mati n xda manfaatnya langsung di akhirat kelak..harta benda ni menambahkan hisab je..kalau zakat xditunaikan dah kena, kite tolong x saudara2 yg memerlukan, awat xsedekah kat sahabat2 kite yg kebuluran di palestine tu..macam2 kite akan di soal tuan2 dan puan2..mcm surah al-zalzalah ckp la, sebesar zarah pun akan diambil kira..yg kite dok wat dosa ni? sebesar nuklear reaktor kot..y kite berasa takut about death? bcoz kite tahu deep down yg amalan kite mmg xbyk langsung, tah diterima ke x n dosa2 kite mmg belambak..dah la kite ni umat akhir zaman..lagi la..sebab tu la kot org2 baik di akhir zaman di panggil pulang ke rahmahtullah awal..byk sgt pancaroba dunia sekrg ni. ustat asri rabbani tu contohnya..aritu tgk tv, die pesan ptg b4 beliau meninggal kt kwn2 die, jgn lambat2kn solat, solat di awal waktu..ni aku akan ingat sampai bila2 insya-Allah.

penah aku dengar bahawa ahkir zaman ni, org islam ramai, tapi yg akan masuk syurga rate die 1 in 1000..like, you have only 0.001% of chance to make it..so little..yet still here are, berjalan dengan angkuhnya kat atas muka bumi Allah ni, yakin yg kite adalah the selected one, akan og straight to heaven tanpa di azab..
every time, i solat berjemaah, this tought ran across my mind..everybdy here wants to go heaven but the odds is 0.001%, who is going to be the selected one.its like, only one person in the masjid and the rest..bye2..and that person might not necessarily be the imam. it can be the only 9 year old kid who is sincere in his solat n never have any buruk sangka twds anything.

so, Allah laid down the path for us, easy je, bertakwa je, amal makruf nahi mungkar.settle..ada dlm surah al-mukminun. tu pun xle wat gak..balok liat sungguh..munafik lagi ada la..tahu kan sifat2 munafik dalam surah al-munafiquun tu kn? haa, sume tu aku ada..bagus kn? apsal aku yakin yg akunye ajal ni lambat lagi? sapa aku ni? nating..nathing at all..anytime aku le go..tersedak nasik, then k.o..komputer ni shot n teletup, masuk dlm brain aku foreign body, jadi ischaemic stroke and k.o..tiba2 ada virus mana hala infect aku jadi enchaphalitis, then k.o..lemah sgt kite manusia ni..tu la, kejar la idup sebelum mati.. aku pesan kat diriku dan sesape yg terbaca post ni..

Ya Allah, cucurkan lah rahmat Mu ke atas ruh cik jun..

Breathe

2010-09-29T05:20:00.000-07:00

ijust love her. too bad she get married too early. boohoo. nway, enjoy.

Peanut butter and Jelly..

2010-09-17T15:57:00.000-07:00

Here's a rank released today by yahoo on the best peanut butter (pb) / mentega kacang on the planet.

well, i certainly agree with the best creamy category. it's definitely skippy. wha? am i a pb xpert? you betcha. had been my staple food since i even began to consume milk! pb is the stuff that running through my arteries and veins right now. ask any of my primary and secondary school mates.

n what's more weird is dat i'm asian! we don't eat sandwiches, we eat rice! but somehow, the stork screw up at the baby factory and i end up with a western tounge. which got to the disbelief and sometimes, ire of my family and mates.

so, my vote on this topic? hmm..
-Best creamy. Skippy
-Best chunky. Lady's choice
-Best flavor. Lady's choice with blackcurrent jam
-Best attempt to innovate but failed. Lady's choice with rice crispies
-Best own made pb sandwich. pb with tuna mayonaise and cheese, and a grilled hot dog.

i'm telling you, pb goes great with almost anything. try it! n maybe we could share recipes.

n to my dissapointment, pb in ireland are crap! thank god they got skippy over there. Jay-sus! n wht do they put on their bread? nutella. get real. who wants to put chocolate on their bread? i rather ate a chocolate bar instead. thank god tht subway decide to open up there to tell them that flavorful food exists, not just potatoes!

here's a clip bout the awesomeness of pb.enjoy.

stand up comedy

2010-09-15T18:32:00.000-07:00

-funny as hell-

been watching russell peters dis week n dat guy is freaking hilarious. n the cool thing is dat he can make racist jokes without annoying anyone, incl the jews!
so, i recalled the only time dat i ever been to a stand up. have i ever been to i? luckily, yes i have! haha..with hadi jiwang indon during the dublin times.

now, Allah made me funny (AMMF) was brilliant n i really respect the effort these guys put in to break the stereotype on muslims. yup, we are soo being stereotype now dat we got people who is ashamed dat they are muslims. and one who constantly act like a cunt.

but, 4get dat, dah akhir zaman pun, of course thing will get worse after this.

what i want to tell to day is my experience at the AMMF. the 1st guy, Azhar Usman, was doin his stuff n tells a joke. then, people laugh. then, still in my joyful moment, i was like, laughing n repeating the joke to hadi jiwang indon.

what happen was, the whole audience went quiet during the time i repeat that joke to hadi jiwang indon n damn it, they all heard it. that guy asked to the audience, "ahaha, who said that?...silence...of course nobody will answer, they always like that.ahaha"

then he made a joke about people like me. what happen to me at that time? cower down, menyorok tersengih2 like any typical melayu bila disuruh panggil depan bagi ucapan ke ape. bile dibelakang punya la bising.ehehe..but that's normal.hehe

no, i was reminded of this incident when i watched russell peters n one of the audicence's phone rang, n nobody wouldn't admit it n then...you know what you gonna get with him..hehehe..kesian all the poor chinese and indian guys but he's cool and knew where to drew the line.

so, now, back to more russell peters n sorry for being a downloading bastard. hehe.

Tackles

2010-09-15T03:30:00.000-07:00

bkn tekel mengorat la, tp tekel dlm bola. now bile dah ade player man u yg pateh kaki baru aa nk bising.. but what can we do? the world is prejudiced n it always on the side of man united. even after, diaby, eduardo, ramsey n just last week zamora broke their leg, the world just kept quiet. thanks to the football god, justice is served. lets hope, monkey cole, john terry bajet, gary neville, receive their balasan secepat mungkin. haha, jahat kn aku nih? what can i do, i'm just a normal arsenal football fan.

-budak pun nk buli ke? xde maruah langsung-

so, wht can we do to curb these always intentional career-threatening tackles?(its never unintentional, you go in for the tackle, there's ur intention. n stop pura2 to be symphatetic shawcrossing crybaby after u commit that tackle. it must had felt good in the dressing room afterwards, ain't it?) i suggest hukum qisas. betul ke spelling ni? a broken leg for a broken leg. i cannot cari mkn, so does you. with this, baru la defender xberani nk wat gila lagi. now what do they get? suspension? so what? my gaji still jalan. anak2 ramsey 11 orang sapa mau makan lepas ni? dah la dia muda lagi. spm pun xpass. bini dia mana reti main bola.

football better shape up now or somebody gonna go home feeling reaallly nice. insert; alf inge haaland, kevin-prince boateng

Bubble Tea

2010-09-06T16:10:00.000-07:00

It's funny dat my gf dunno what a bubble tea is. She thought it's like the lipton tea that you can get at the convinience store..haha..jgn marah k? bulan posa kena byk sabaq..

so, here's what a bubble tea looks like.n here's a link on how to make them.
whatscookingamerica.net/BubbleTea.htm

or better still, u can buy one for as low as rm2.40 kot..n it comes in many flavors..
nnt kite g beli sesame k?

On lailatulqadr

2010-09-03T17:58:00.000-07:00

its the awaited night in ramadhan..but what's trendy and weird currently is that we keep looking for it but didn't do anything to appraise it. n then, the usual connotation which is, ah, ruginya tak beribadat, will occur. pelik kn? kite cari, maybe kite jumpa, kite tahu kelebihan die, tapi malas nk beribadat, then menyesal..whose fault is it? inilah penyakit umat akhir zaman, cintakan dunia, cintakan selimut, cintakan makanan...yet, they still hope and look for a miracle..lets hope that Allah bestowed His blessing on us despite our shortcomings..malu sgt tgk tv mlm2 org semayang terawih kt Makkah Al-Mukaramah..ini peringatan untuk diri saya sendiri..sapa2 yg terasa bole la wat pengajaran..pintu taubat masih terbuka..and sesungguhnya Allah tu Maha pengampun..wat la salah sejuta kali pun, kalau betul2 ikhlas kn bertaubat, insyaAllah diampunkan..bkn cam manusia, baru wat salah sekali, putus silatulrahim seumur idup..nk wat camne, dah lumrah kite mcm tu..but, frankly speaking, i dont think it has passed yet..peluang masih ada tuh..meh,pulun..ya rabbi, ihdinas siratulmustaqim...tunjukkanlah daku yg lurus ya Allah.

i missed cherry coke!

2010-09-03T02:54:00.000-07:00

remember this? god, i miss this. and also fanta grape..and also air botol..

n we got? real love..

2010-08-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

yok..feeling really better now..gonna ask 4 a leave dis monday. fingers crossed, hope dat everything gonna be allrite..cuz rite now i'm totally not mentally prepared to go back in..if i got pushed in, i'm afraid something unwanted might happen..

k, emo stuf aside, arsenal is doin really well. theo and arshaving are on fire! keep it up guys.

n still wondering whether dis ramadhan is a blessing in disguise? if only i have dat doraemon mesin masa kan best? could see wht will happen and can rectify anything dat was wrong..can wait 4 the physicist to bend the wormhole..yup, if i end up in library, ill only study like, 50% of the time. the rest are spent on reading other books..mcm2 la..history ke, geography ke, travel guide ke, astronomy ke, biography ke, n i found this one interesting book sbout public health pre WWII in south east asia. In it there's a picture of the maternity ward in Hospital balik pulau in 1930s i think. mmg klasik la.turns out dat Hosp.BP is like, among the early hosp to promote better maternity care and hygiene..wah, bangga..kembang setalam..miow2~

random quotes from 2day

2010-08-23T10:05:00.000-07:00

-Everybody wants to talk but no one wants to listen-
-opportunities are abundant. nothing is safe and certain.

My life is brilliant - one week ptsd

2010-08-17T00:34:00.000-07:00

That line from James Blunt's song kept ringing in my head ever since. Ever since i had started my housemanship programme. Well, you can say that i had been hypnotizing myself with this line of the song. self-hypnotizing? yup. due to the unsurmountable stress level that i had faced. not only myself, but i believed other houseman in this country faced also. so, by enduring it every single day, i can tell you that any normal human being will eventually cracked and start to go gaga.

hehehe..

2010-08-06T03:59:00.000-07:00

my fav item rite now is a pen. starting work on monday..huh..cuak gila..xtipu

Check out this eCard I just sent from MyFunCards!

2010-08-06T03:57:00.001-07:00

arsenal till the end

2010-07-29T11:23:00.000-07:00

"However, I am Arsenal's captain. I am a Gunner and that is where I have made myself as a player and matured as a person."-Cesc Fabregas (quote fr soccernet). Cesc, u r a real man.n i'm really proud to have u as arsenal captain. sorry barca, we gave u henry already, now back off por favor.
apart fr dat, all is well. starting work in a fortnite, room's all cleaned up, meetng my gf dis sunday, god, i miss her, n then, tata..i might see u if fate brings us together n somehow u end up being treated by me. apologies in advance for any inconvenience i shall cause.

randon quotes from 2day

2010-06-15T20:04:00.000-07:00

-fate is twisted but believe me, it'll add up, flip over, turn back, or make sense in the end-

touching..

2010-06-14T10:03:00.001-07:00

randon quotes from 2day

2010-06-14T09:43:00.000-07:00

-again, fate is cruel, but i still believe in it-

randon quotes from 2day

2010-06-13T09:10:00.000-07:00

-what that makes me if i don't sacrifies for her?-house
-fate is cruel, and interesting-

randon quotes from 2day

2010-06-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

-i'll give u half of my life; only if u give me half of yours..-Fma ending
-u don't always get what u want, it's called equilibrium-

world cup 2010 time!!

2010-06-11T00:25:00.000-07:00

yuhuu..with the exams 90% done and dusted, it's now wc mode!!!

as usual, predictions:
to go through;
GP A- S.Africa, Mexico
GP B- Argentina, Nigeria
Gp C- England, USA
Gp D- Germany, Ghana
Gp E- Ned, Cameroon
Gp F- Italy, Paraguay
Gp G- Brazil, Cote d'ivorie
Gp H- Espana, Swiss

Round of 16;
Mex vs Nga= Mex
Eng vs Gha= Eng
Ger vs USA= Ger
Arg vs S.Af= Arg
Ned vs Par= Par
Bra vs Swi= Bra
Ita vs Cam= Cam
Esp vs Civ= Esp

Quater;
Par vs Bra= Bra
Mex vs Eng= Eng
Ger vs Arg= Ger
Cam vs Esp= Esp

Semi;
Bra vs Eng= Bra
Ger vs Esp= Esp

Final;
Bra vs Esp= Brazil!!

yup, Brazil will win the WC 2010..n cameroon chances against espana is good in the quater like 45%..so we might see an african country in the semis!!

but i sapot argentina, ahaha..they could go all the way, xcept their coach dunno about football tactis, aii, wht a pity..

randon quotes from 2day

2010-06-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

-2day is only worth 5 secs-dats it..5 years n still dunno anything

randon quotes from 2day

2010-05-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

-tak ade lauk-...ai, i just love wednesdays..huhu

randon quotes from 2day

2010-05-24T10:42:00.000-07:00

-love is a time machine-
-paradox of tuberculoid leprosy-

adei..lawak

2010-05-23T15:58:00.000-07:00

bilroth i and ii

2010-05-23T13:50:00.000-07:00

from ohcm-the pleasure of the physician is little (yup,10-15% la, unless dpt cuti 2 hari every week due to the excess supply of doc), the gratitude of patients is rare (indeed, kena maki dgn saman lg ada la..), and even rarer is material reward (aku jual nasi lemak ayam berempah lg byk duit), but these things will never deter the student who feels the call within him. (insert smiley face) thanks bilroth for stopping me goin into mdd in dis xm week..hope ur grandkids can come out with bilroth iii..ow, we got roux-en-y alredi ye?

so close no matter how far

2010-05-21T22:02:00.000-07:00

a step u come closer to Me, I'll be 10 steps closer to u..

patlabor ed

2010-05-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

ni satu lg feveret aku. midnight blue-kiss me quick.
sape nk mp3 pm aku,

kyoshi bin bin

2010-05-18T07:26:00.000-07:00

just surfing n suddenly tingt drama ni masa kecik2 dulu. so, try aa find any info bout dis. n here's the bes i can get.

ni lagu op die..sori la xdpt yg dlm drama tu punye. psl tu lagi best sbb dieorg menari atas bumbung sekolah. nama title lagu ni
田原俊彦 - 抱きしめて TONIGHT (Tahara Toshihiko- Hold Tonight). n die ni hero aa jd cikgu kt sek tu. n japanese 80's chick looks really cute compare to nowadays..
ni aa nama die 4 sape nak donlod pastu pass kt aku. 教師びんびん物語 (Kyoshi Binbin Monogatari)

wah, malas study.

2010-05-15T12:34:00.000-07:00

gila aa acute exacerbation of malas study. time2 camni aa tu..now tgh lyn jiwang. manga jiwang, lagu jiwang..n who's the best person to belt out jiwang songs other than UNGU!..
aaa, miss me mom soo much, i noe i sound like a crybaby but i really want to b one rite now..bwahhhh!
wan2 upload some pics in fb but due to the privacy issue dat fb has so i deicded to cancel it. but here's a pic dat i really treasure. dis is from my stolen sony hp.

i thnk dis was taken when i was in 3rd yer n depa still dok kat apartmen. aa, miss dem both..the naughtiest kids u'll ever meet but..big smile..wish id spent more time with them..kalau aku sek ren lg kn bes.....wish the wormhole theory is practical enuff so dat dimensions can be connected n time travel is possible..

reality sinks in

2010-05-08T11:20:00.000-07:00

Dka=hypergly,acidosis,ketosis/uria. mx=gik regime/sliding scale.correct?check sat.
yeah, u think u know so much now but the moment u step in2 the exam hall, everything goes blank...totally..
i'm just afraid of the long case in a sense that when u take time to think they think u r unsure or dunno anything. so, to be confident is to try answer as fast n precise as you could, with the ability to blurt non-stop 4 30 sec will impose a significant impression to the examiners.
but many times it happened b4 when i tried this tactic, i'd end up looking stupider than i appear..then, i start to dig my hole..
so, the question is, whts the time limit u have to think. before u appear to be stupid? i say 10 sec is too long.. around 2-3 sec. with 5 sec max..
if u get an easy case, then this is achivable. but, if u get a hard case, say, ITP or some other rare cases that u never seen in the ward but suddenly they appear in the exam, thank god, like MM or MS or M.Night Syamalan syndrome..then, u'll go like..hickory dickory dock, the mouse ran down the clock, fuck fuckety fuck..
so, i think wht i'm gonna do is give 2-5 minutes to the patient to tell everything he wants to tell. then, shoot him with close-ended yes/no answers to the end (5 minutes). then, quickly do vitals n gen (5min icl BP), specific systems (5 min), other systems (5 minutes)=25-30 minutes. the next 30 minutes will be arraging the hx, p/e, do a nice summary, give min 3 Dd, do ix with blood, imaging, special, then mx non-pharm/pharm/sx. 20 min. then 5 min to rite aetiology/patho/risk factor/complication/prog of prov Dd. there, 1 hour in total.
b4 dis in exam, i'm very nice to the patient, clerking like 40 min with rapport building+empathy thn, realize, shyte, i havent examine the eye/pregnant stomach/MSE.

ipman/ipman2 had thought me dat sometimes being the nice guy just don't work.
u hav to wingchun it.

well, good morning..

2010-05-03T12:20:00.000-07:00

stupid arses..lost 2-1, bloodyhell, wasting my precious final exam time..as if this is not a waste of time..well, i'm soo bloody bored dat i could every hour u noe..goal.com is having their having player of the season, so, i think i might do so as well..

AC Milan- Ronaldinho. a season of nothing to talk bout milan cept when beckham came then broke his foot, jongang did his best to rediscover his form, albeit not the same as during his height, no one can blame him though. if i got loads of money n no purpose in life, i would enjoy me money parteeing n lavishing n install some braces. so, don't blame dunga if he doesn't go to Wc2010.

Valencia-David Villa. their best player 4 two season alredi. come to arsenal la wei. pi barca wat pe. bodo la wenger xnk beli dulu.

esok sambung.

still alive but i'm barely breathing..

2010-05-03T04:42:00.000-07:00

arsenal, you better win 2nite, cuz i'll be staying up. suggestion 4 next season.

scrap the 4-3-3. unless u can bring xavi or iniesta to the Emirates, wenger. instead, go back to the 4-4-2 that served us so well before. hence, the need of another dm. alex song is not the man to partner cesc currently even tho he's improved. top of my list would be; flamini (don't play much at ac, he knows cesc gameplay, high workrate, french) > matuidi (vieira like, cheap n unknown, french) >m.diarra (don't play much at real, tough, xhensem, speak french) > m.veloso (can speak to cesc, mahal sikit n non-french). sila JUAL abu bakar diaby. asap. denilson bole simpan dulu. n berlatih tarian golek2 kepala dulu.

then, fill nasri at LW and theo at RW. striker rvp partner chamach/arshavin/bentner (tlg aa power taun depan!)/eduardo (tlg aa letak titanium+uranium+plutomium dlm kaki ko kalau cuak sgt kena tekel)

RB sagna no hal. LB ni nk kena ketuk sikit. apa punya bodo aar clichy taun ni. so, beli aa ahmad(murah) ke, ihsan (lagi murah) ke, kasi die gelabah. pastu die perform then settle masalah.

CD vermaelem ok, kena kasi partner yg ganas sikit. suggestn; g.cahill > sakho > jagielka. gallas sub, sol pun. sila JUAL mikel silvester. asap.

keeper. sial JUAL almunia n fabianski asap. dah abih tali hayat dah oii. WW2BAM pun ada 3 tali hayat tau dak? cadangan; lloris> akinfeev> gordon. don vito sub. aku 3rd choice.kah kah kah.

she turns and says "are you alright?"

2010-04-29T11:15:00.000-07:00

The grass always look greener on the other side..always..n hope, most of the time, are misleading..

i said i must be fine cuz my heart still beating..

2010-04-20T22:45:00.000-07:00

after 25 years, i'm still a wuss..aih..pray 4 the best...

TimeIsNotOnMySide2

tensen

80s playlist

cerita hijrah

baru pindah

The philosophical me

awat la hg pi blah

berkabung

Cesca Fabregasy

mengata dulang paku serpih

BOla is Back!

Sick of Malaysian politics

one hour from love

Arse

Long Kiss Goodbye-Halcali

mokcik hypo

random quotes of the day

the rzon

transfer stori

nihon go shiken

The paradox of angry birds.

pareto's rule

bola bola bola

let the k-pop fever continues lagi

let the k-pop fever continues

Shampoo-After School

Day 2- Non Hodgkin lymphoma

Never lose faith

Sayugianya..

thescriptology

story

emo kid

cute song..cute vid..peace

be responsible on what you are responsible of

4 the 1st time

Old and Young

Nating

Arsenal cinta hatiku

prebiew arsenal vs barcalona

Malaysia vs Hong Kong semalam

cerita-ceriti

new country lagi.

Books does lie

bijak bijak bijak sifir

yet another stupidity by the mmc

up!

muvi..my nama is khan x tgk lg walaupun dah donlod lama dah

more stories bout the impending doom on medicine career in malaysia

wassup?

sabishii

sumbody is gettin high

The sad story of Francis Jeffers

mari memasak

kpop fever

Bapak sudah mau pulang, dong..

Stories bout mah skool

The 4 D

Lost and found

gud day

the promised poem

lawak of the day

aaaa

test

test

oyw.

every day a new adventure

hidup sebelum mati..

Breathe

Peanut butter and Jelly..

stand up comedy

Tackles

Bubble Tea

On lailatulqadr

i missed cherry coke!

n we got? real love..

random quotes from 2day

My life is brilliant - one week ptsd

hehehe..

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arsenal till the end